I've only recently begun sharing my experiences with a few people close to me. I don't have them often, just every couple of months or so and for quite some time, I didn't trust that what I was experiencing was real. I've considered that these are just stress induced hallucinations or maybe some sort of mental disorder but when I'm honest with myself, I know that is not the case.
I'll start with what's been happening recently. In the past 9 months or so, I've been visited at night by spirits. The first was a dark shadow that stood by my bed and when I asked it to leave, eventually it did. I chalked it up to a vivid dream and went back to sleep.
A couple of months later while I was sleeping, a young boy came into my room. I heard the bedroom door open and he was just standing there. At first, I thought one of my children had come to wake me to tell me they had a bad dream (I have young twin boys) I sat up in bed and asked him "honey, what's up? Is everything ok?" When he didn't answer me, it hit me that this young boy was at least 2-3 years older than my boys. Again, I chalked it up to vivid dreaming and went back to sleep. Later that night, I was woken up by a woman calling my name. In a half dream/half waking state, I answered her "What?" again she called my name and again I answered out loud "What?". When I looked toward the sound of the voice, there was a woman standing there with 2 young boys. She was about my age but looked as though she was from the 1930's or 40's based on her dress. I sat up in bed, acknowledged that she was there and then asked her to please leave. She did.
A few weeks ago, I decided to reach out. I don't really know what that means other than to say that I invited the woman back to tell me anything she needed to tell me. I explained that I didn't really understand what was happening and asked her to try not to frighten me. That night, there was a gentle tugging on my bedspread. I woke up and said out loud (remembering that I invited the communication) 'Ok, I'm coming" I just knew that someone was waiting for me in the corner of my bedroom and that they were leaving it up to me to decided whether or not I would come to them. I crawled out of bed and went to the corner. I can't really explain how I knew but as soon as I was standing there, I knew it was a small child. I knelt down in front of her (not seeing yet, just feeling) and once I was on my knees, I had a sense of vertigo and she began to come into focus. I could see her plain as day! A little girl about 7 years old. I smiled and said 'Hello' and she just beamed! It was obvious that she was thrilled that I could see her and I had the very strong sense that she's been waiting for me to acknowledge her for a long time. It sounds crazy, but I know this little girl. I've never seen her before in my lifetime but I had an overwhelming sense of joy and relief that we were seeing each other again. She spoke one sentence to me and as I reached up to 'touch' her face, she disappeared.
I've seen other spirits at different times in my life but not consistently and I've never thought their visits were directly related to me. Now I'm wondering if someone just has something that they are trying to tell me or if I have a unique ability to 'see'.
If I sound like a novice or like I have no clue what I'm talking about, then that's about right. I've never given this much thought but have a strong feeling that this is something I should look into.
Is it possible to just go through a psychic phase or is it possible that I'm overlooking a true gift? Is someone trying to send me a specific message and once I receive it, the visions will stop? Honestly, I don't think so.
Thanks for reading my story. I'd love some guidance from anyone who's had similar experiences.