I am a 15 year old girl who is confused on what is going on. I hope that by me telling you my story you may get some understanding on what I have been experiencing.
I cannot pinpoint the exact age this started but I can assure you it was somewhere around 3 or 4, I call it an "inner voice" I know that that sounds weird but it was just a voice that whispered and it sounded as if it was inside my own mind, I was too little to think I was mental, I assumed everyone dealt with it. The voice told me to do certain things, every time it would whisper something my head would throb and all the blood rushed to my ears, all I could hear was the voice and my heart pound. Then everything goes into slow motion and I would listen to the voice and do what it said.
As I said before I thought it was normal so I left it alone. When I was 5 or 6 it went away but came back when I was 8 and went on until I was 10. From then on it stopped completely I still have no clue what on earth it was. One time I was at a party and I was sitting on the couch and I just felt my self jerk forward and fall back, the funny thing is everyone said I didn't move. Recently I was laying in bed trying to go to sleep when a face popped up on the side of my bed and it immediately went back down. The face resembled a creeply happy old man with a wide grin silver white hair and silver wire glasses, he had crows feet and wrinkles on his forehead and chin.
My mom always thinks I'm sick because I tend to lack energy and feel tired all the time. Every once in awhile I go in this trance where my eyes concentrate on one object and my mind clears and I cannot feel my arms or my legs moving, as if I was lying still. I get really uncomfortable, I feel as though someone is watching me and I don't like to be alone, for many reasons, I always hear things that's why I keep a fan on in my room even in winter. The sound blocks out evey thing else, I connect to books and movies and tv shows as if I were the characters, I feel the pain and the sadness or anger they go through. I also feel emotions I do not connect with, but its not all the time. I cry out of nowhere and everyone looks at me like I'm a freak.
I just don't know what to do. I don't really have anyone to talk to. My parents just nod their heads and pretend to understand what I'm going through, please help?