I am new to this site and have enjoyed reading many of the stories and advice on here. I have had a few incidents in my life that I can't just shrug off and was hoping that someone can help clarify them for me or at least point me in a direction for looking for the answers.
The incidents or occurrences that really have me wondering are the ones that happen when I try to go to sleep at night. I have had a few in the past year and most recently early this morning, and they usually happen when I am asleep yet somewhat lucid. It starts with a loud whooshing noise in my ears... To the point that is all that I hear. If you could imagine having your car window open and driving fast and the wind noise that fills the car, then that is close to what I am hearing. With this noise, I cannot open my eyes, nor can I move my body at all. I am quite frozen in state and I cannot call out for help. This is usually when the fear grips me and in my head I call out to Archangel Michael for protection... He is my 'go to' for help. Twice now, when I have called out in my head for help, I am then able to slightly make a noise from my throat, more of a murmur and then suddenly I unfreeze and can open my eyes. With this happening again this morning I have been wondering if this is me being somewhat conscious of trying to astral project or is this spirit trying to come through to me?
I have also had lucid dreams where either a voice was talking in an unknown language to me in behind my right ear while I was laying on my back in bed and when I opened my eyes I could still feel the tingling sensation in my ear. Or there was a time (while sleeping) where I was sitting in bed within a vortex of swirling energy and I could not move or call out for help but when I am able to finally get free I open my eyes and my heart is racing and I am panting. I really am wondering why this happens when I go to sleep. I used to hear footsteps in the house late at night too, but it has been quiet for awhile now. I would very much like to be more receptive to my gifts opening but don't know how to work through my fear. I would appreciate any advice or thoughts on this. Thank you.