I want to embrace certain feelings, abilities and experiences but I can't help but feel like a skeptic, (even though I've felt things), is that something someone who has now developed their talent/ability experience? It's like I feel it inside of me, like it's ready to spread it's wings (figuratively speaking of course) wants to come out, and I get the sensation it will come out no matter what in a way. I can't talk to anyone about it, without them either blowing it off (sort of like I do) or getting the vibe they really do not believe me. Almost like I KNOW they don't believe me I feel it even though they seem interested in what I'm saying. It's like a lie. Others don't hide their disinterest or skepticism, which oddly is refreshing, their skepticism is honest, its a honest feeling. I guess because I feel exactly how their coming across.
I don't even know if that makes sense. As I read what I'm typing it makes sense but doesn't all at the same time. Another odd thing this seems to be the most I've expressed how I, It, feels, how other make me feel about it. I have another question for those of you who have read this post this far, what does energy feel like? How do I know if what I am feeling is anything? Is it energy or something else? I mean everyone has gut feelings right? But then again, I'm sure not everyone's finger tips get warm to the touch, huh?. Well. I better publish this before I change my mind, before I just stop trying. Any feed back is nice, or if anyone has a remote idea of what i'm trying to say or any answers to my questions, and there are more than I can express at this moment. But let's work on the few I've put there.