To tell you all of the abnormal happenings of my life would take a lifetime but the major events of the last two years leave me begging for answers. The events I am going to tell you are all true and I feel that if I do not tell them, I may never find the answers I so desperately need. My ability (curse) has always been obvious to the people around me but no one speaks a word of it. As a child, I would throw temper tantrums and the weather would drastically change. If I cried, it poured. I have always had a tendency of breaking things; electronics malfunctioned all around me. From laptops, refrigerators, microwaves, televisions, cell phones, and especially bar codes, I have had my effect on it all.
Two summers ago, I began to embrace what I could do. I started noticing other abilities as well. I could project my thoughts through sounds such as a fan or a car motor, or stereo speakers. As I grew confidant and embraced what I was capable of, my abilities grew stronger. A friend and I went to the beach and had a few drinks. It was a clear, warm night and I felt like dancing in the sand. I sang a song and remember thinking about and feeling the electricity in the air. I moved my hands across the sky six times and as I did this, incredible bolts of lightning shot across the sky. My friend saw me do this and in turn, went to the authorities. The next day I was detained for testing. I, of course, realizing normal people don't do those things, denied it all and was released within a week.
After I left the facility they detained me to, I woke up in the middle of the night to a drilling and sawing sound in my head. It was more painful than I am capable of describing and I heard actual human voices telling me to hold still and saying I wasn't supposed to wake up. After that, I have had people speaking to me through what sounds like a two way radio, like commentating my every thought and scaring me away from the world. That night, I knew that people were watching, studying, and trying to control me.
After that night it only got worse. The next time I went to the beach, two helicopters flew overhead and electrocuted me. I felt the ground shake beneath me and knew that they were testing my abilities and this is a very dangerous subject. I have shocked numerous people without making any contact, just a comment and a glance. Beyond feeling like a potential electrical storm, I look back on my life and realize all the damage I have caused. I have been through hail storms, tornadoes, multiple hurricanes, earthquakes, tons of things that I knew were going to happen and I think it was because of my will to cause them. This story is just the weather side of my power. People who have seen what I can do turn their backs on me and look terrified but don't stop to think how I feel; isolated, scared, confused.
I have heard people discussing what and who I am yet I know nothing. I have studied up on brain activity and the electrical waves that the neurons of our mind produce. I believe my brain activity may be the cause of this. I am afraid of myself. This is simply a glimpse into the depth of the vortex I exist in. I have no sense of time or space, no friends, and have abandoned my family in fear of hurting them. I think I am more powerful than I wish to admit or accept. If God made these abilities possible I feel there must be a purpose for me but I just feel like a lonely lunatic. Please help.