My name is Ian and I started having major deja vu at the age of 20. My deja vu was very strong to the point where I could change the outcome to some situations or predict the winner of sports games of who would win. I was dead on 99% of the time. I remember telling my brother the Panthers would beat Oakland 17-9 before the game ended and I knew it would end 17-9 for some reason. It ended and he was freaking out. I myself was in shock, finally believing that I may do have some sort of deja vu. Sometimes they are so strong I can predict the outcome.
On many different occasions I get these visions though in my mind, they just are clips of memories they feel like, like I've lived them in the past life at the moment they come to me, but I am not there. Once these visions come to me, I remember them and keep thinking about them over and over, but can't put an ending to any of them. They are just dead-end visions.
They are frustrating, it stresses me out dearly though.
When I go to bed and fall asleep, I dream of future deja vu moments. I know it because I feel it in my body and in my mind, it feels very vibrant, in my dream/premonition dreams, the colors are all so bright. It makes me feel relieved and relaxed for some reason. These moments I dream of happen, but I do not keep track of them. I remember the moments when they hit me, because I feel like I dreamed this moment, which was in my sleep.
It is hard to explain, I just have so many memories/past episodes that I can't write them all down since it's been happening the past year.
I have a lot of senseless Deja vu as well. I'll be watching TV or sitting down or in my college classroom, and there are colors and items that set my deja vu off.
I can't explain it, I am just seeking information on how to control this or someone to please explain this to me. It's not torment, I enjoy the ability of deja vu I just am hoping someone can relate.
Is there anyone who can explain or relate?