People called me by different names. Some said I'm an indigo child, Some said I'm a light worker, While others called me a warrior Or a healer:) But 1 thing is for sure,I'm here carrying a mission to help people. To see smile on people's face and to respect people's choices. Some look at me as their guide while others look at me as their students. I guide people according to what I know and learn from people for what I don't know. Here is my story:
Ever since I was a kid, I always felt different. But I did not have the ability to see spirits nor something unusual. I didn't act like a kid normally would at my age. At that time my friends would play barbie. While I was just stayed very quiet. I was a tomboy. I always act like a fighter, carrying sword,&i know how to dodge someone's attack. Even I never had a lesson of martial arts. I also often giving advise to people including my parents. But of course they'll say what did I know? I'm just a little girl haha. I remember how I often spend most of my time in the balcony praying for this world. At this age (22) I'm not sure what I was thinking at that time, But I always did that secretly anyway. I had a common problem like what a psychic usually have when they are still young. People around me ignored me and won't believe me. I was lost. I don't understand a lot of things about humans and I don't want to understand. Because I always thought 'if they don't want to understand me, why should I understand them?'. That pushed me to finally ignored my abilities. But instead of hiding it, it just kept growing.
I remember how I can do a weather forecast just by looking at the sky, I also remember how I give proofs to my cousin about my precognition ability, and how I told my classmate about every each person's feeling during science class. But of course like what others would usually think, its normal. I thought everyone can do that. At that time its more like I didn't want to believe that I'm different. I felt lonely. Didn't have any friends who can really be connected with me. That's when I closed my abilities entirely. During my college time. Everything is fine. No abilities. No weird thoughts or visions. Just 1 thing is not fine, something inside me kept telling me its not right. And so one time I injured my right hand, which forced me to take a break from starting my bachelor degree. I spend a long time doing nothing. Desperate. Vulnerable. Having injured hand is like having no future. That's what I thought. But at that time god helped me. I met a lot of new peoples. I learned a lot. It was like an awakening for me. I become a new person. I was given a gift to heal people. That's when the time I decided that I want to help people. And god let me meet a lot people who had problems. At first I thought healing is nothing special at all. Its not cool being a cleric you know. Warrior with sword is cooler for me at time:P but I now understand. It's a blessing for me to able to cure someone's heart,mind,soul,&body with god's permission.
Since I was a kid I often dream about how I help people and my family in a chaotic world. It's usually in night time. Buildings are falling apart. Lots of injured peoples. 'demons' are everywhere. When I'm in that dream, I usually wear a different clothes and the appearance is not like my current self. In that dream I usually fight those demons and trying to protect people around me. I also dream about how I have wings. White wings. Like the one angels have. And its huge. I often dream about how I fly and sometimes I dream of falling. But weirdly enough, I'm not injured at all. As time goes by, the dream just getting more real. It feels like I'm in a certain mission/adventure. My appearance and my abilities keep changing. My latest appearance is, I'm wearing a hooded cloak with sleeves. Its a white cloak and on that cloak there are colors of violet on some part. There are design of lines in gold. Inside that cloak I'm wearing a tight black clothes. Like a cat woman. I also carry a sword. And I remember how I have the abilities to control energy and elements. I won't explain it any further cause it'll make a very long story haha. 2 of my friends also have similar dreams. Its just they are having different appearance,abilities,and mission. People said it's how I fight in the world of 'spirits'. While some said it's just a dream... Some also said its 'my other self'. Oh have I mentioned in every dream I always have the same appearance&becoming the same 'character'. The appearance only change when my 'consciousness' change. Its like an aura, it only change when either you regain more consciousness or lose one.
I would appreciate it to hear comments from you guys. And please tell your story if you can relate with what I had:) I have posted a few stories in this site before. About finding who I really am >.< And now I found it. Servant's of god and someone who support humans:D but even after all that, we are all the same:) and because we are the same, it is right for us to share our love and empathy to each other~~ <3
Love and light~~
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Lets be friend!