I need a mentor. The realization that I actually have gifts have also led me to realize how destructive they are because I have suppressed/ignored them for so long. It seems that with my family it gets stronger as we get older, and will manifest horribly when ignored for long enough.
If you read my other post, I am empathic amongst other things. One example from last week is a gentleman that I met off an online dating website. Oh he seemed like he had his head on straight and everything was awesome for three days. But then I met him in person and I could tell right off without even having the discussion with him that he was severely depressed, and that he was a sober alcoholic. I was depressed the whole entire day, with severe hopelessness (which is unlike my personality, I'm very optimistic even if sad) after meeting him. I decided that he was not someone for me, stopped dating him that next day, and was fine. However, this was only three days ago, and I feel that he may be upset with the whole ordeal and unintentionally attempting to attach to my emotions, and I've been feeling very lethargic and tired.
The destructiveness is that this person tied themselves to me. I haven't talked to them since last Friday. He somehow tied himself to me, like a psychic drain. I have two examples - 1) I had a dream about him as a vampire trying to attack and stalk me Sunday night; 2) I dreamt this morning that someone was whispering to me, but I knew I was asleep. I had a lucid dream that someone was trying to attack me. Today, he sends me a message early in the morning saying that he thought about me at approximately the same time that I had both those dreams. He wants to continue to talk, as he misses me. He doesn't even know me! I don't know how to detach myself and not let these people drain me like this. I feel like I'm going crazy. I seriously could use some assistance in understanding how to know what is the actual empathy, and what my own feelings are.
I'm a fairly stable and professional business-woman. I'm frustrated because I don't feel that I have the ability to deal with this, nor the interest. But I need to be able to understand because otherwise this is going to drive me batshiat crazy.