I don't know if this website is the right place to go, but I truly need some assistance in the things that are happening in my life. I sit here listening to music to dispel negative energy that plagues me. I have recently (within the last month) learnt that I am a medium/empath. I am having a very difficult time not feeling like I am going crazy, and understanding how to deal with the side where people's emotions can heavily affect my mood.
One example from last week is a gentleman that I met off an online dating website. Oh he seemed like he had his head on straight and everything was awesome for three days. But then I met him in person and I could tell right off without even having the discussion with him that he was severely depressed, and that he was a sober alcoholic. I was depressed the whole entire day, with severe hopelessness (which is unlike my personality, I'm very optimistic even if sad) after meeting him. I decided that he was not someone for me, stopped dating him that next day, and was fine. However, this was only three days ago, and I feel that he may be upset with the whole ordeal and unintentionally attempting to attach to my emotions, and I've been feeling very lethargic and tired.
The house that I currently live in as well has something residual in it. I have seen that it changes my personality, as it has done with previous tenants (family) that lived there in the past. I am in the process of attempting to clear that negative energy, but it is stubborn and stuck. But since I moved in I became angry, and I am not an angry person. My mother describes it as exactly that, she has seen my personality change.
I also have the ability to make very quick calls about how people are. I met this one woman recently and she is very guarded. But for some reason I told her that I thought she was very lonely, and she looked at me in shock and asked "I am, but how did you know that?"
My mother and brother are also similar, but they don't handle it well... Either shutting down and/or with drugs. I have always shut my abilities "off" by using logic and scientific fact. Not that it has done me that well to do so in my personal relationships, and I have suffered from this through depression in the past. Through my search for self-improvement to be happy, I have started to actually let myself see instead of ignoring what's been right in front of my eyes for 30 years.
How do I learn how to handle this? I see that there are books and other things that I could purchase, but I'd rather have others that can help and mentor me. I'm desperate for any guidance.