I hope someone can help me and tell me what I did wrong. I see smudging's being done for many different reasons. I read about it on the internet and it seemed like a good solution for the problems my daughter and her flat mates were experiencing. I'm a sensitive and have been able to receive messages from spirit since I was a kid. I don't usually see them but I have. Mostly I feel them and hear them. I have tried to keep this hidden and closed and I have had some bad experiences, I'm sure from my lack of knowledge.
My daughter moved into a flat and they began to have spirit activity. They did nothing to initiate the activity. Things would disappear and then show up days later after the entire place had been searched. I felt a childlike presence when I was there. I had never smudged before and had only read a little about it. I did not prepare myself in any way. I smudged the flat as we recited The Lord's Prayer. When finished, I felt instantly sick, so exhausted and totally out of sorts. I felt as if I had been slammed by an invisible force. I cannot explain it. It was a terrible feeling. As I drove home I felt the same presence with me. I was so sick and out of sorts that when I got home I slept for 24 hours. My husband kept asking me why I was laughing and giggling. I was so surprised because he doesn't have a psychic bone in his body but he kept hearing it and of course it wasn't me. I did not know what to do so I called a Metaphysical shop and told them what had happened and asked if they knew someone who could help me. They gave me a number and I called and the woman there told me what she was going to do and told me to visualize the white light meditation. I knew the minute it was gone. I just felt the entire house change.
I have felt the pull to be a Solitary my entire life. I have been learning about this. I would love to smudge. I see everyone talking about it and how good the house feels afterwards but I am so afraid. I am trying to read a lot and start my Solitary path slowly with smudging and candle magic but I am so afraid yet I feel a strong pull and feel that this is my path. How do I get rid of my fears and start to practice?
There is no one near me to help me and keep me from making mistakes. I feel so stifled and stagnant but I want to make my way down this path. I feel that smudging is the beginning lesson for me. I am the 7th daughter of a 7th daughter... Does this mean anything? I have always been drawn to Witchcraft. I would like to learn how to protect myself and smudge safely. Thank you for your help.