I've look it up on the internet but can't find anyone who has went through as much as I have. This is actually annoying. I hear it's a blessing and I don't want it to go away but It's only minuscule things that I can see before they happen and I can never seem to change the outcome. However there are things that I know about the future I have been approached by people in different sides (good/evil I don't know about those two things or whose who they just seem to have different views each viewing themselves as good) who want to dictate my life and I don't know.
I just wish I could see bigger things with the full details not just the outcome. I wonder if these things happen because I make them happen or because I believe they will. I feel like I have to chose a side fast. I'm not coming back again. I'm tired and the things of this world seem so trivial. Nothing is as it seems. Free will is an illusion. You have a choice but the amount of influence and pressure put upon that choice degrades its integrity. I'll be a free agent for now. They left me alone when I stopped tell the truth or what I know and when someone close to me died. I was made to feel like I was making things happen at the beginning of this year. I didn't know the future I was making it happen. When everyone was getting sick and the out breaks and the asteroid thing happened I was made to feel as if it were my fault. I had come to the conclusion that they were going to kill me and I would be shot and that my brother would be hurt but he would not die and then brothers in our area started getting shot, I told my mother that God was going to close the doors of heaven because they were close to breaking in and it became local news that a doctor had closed his doors and they kept playing it on the news. I would see this Jewish guy every morning as I went to get coffee about 6 am and he would be looking at this clock and the TV I knew him we had talked a couple of times and I had begun to tell him you should not observe time John why are you observing time your people know this in a joking way. One day the cashier told me he was doing it so that he could invest to which I replied his people know better this is what God has told them and the clock fell off the wall and he left and they asked me to leave.
There is a lot more and I know it sounds crazy. My heart would begin to beat to fast when I talk to much and I had come to the conclusion that God was going to kill me because I was talking too much. When I would speak the truth my right ear would become clear and almost feel like it was sweating inside. I began to go blind. My sight is back now though. Someone died in my family and everything went back to normal. I'm so confused. I wish there was someone who understood who wasn't a religious fanatic that I could trust not to try and change the story. We changed the story because a deal was made. It shall be as it has always been. I don't know if we were suppose to because Nasa is now preparing for an asteroid. I guess I shouldn't be posting this but I had to get it out. The asteroid from February was suppose to hit but we were given a second chance. 2012 was to end in February not December the dates have been changed so that we may not know the truth. I think we messed up. It is as it should always be. If great progress is not made in new Egypt as it was before 2020 shall see the end of this cycle and a new beginning I do not know if it will be on this planet though. I'm normal I mean I don't think about this stuff all the time and I don't give what happen credibility. I don't know what I want. I came to the conclusion that I shouldn't do anything just watch but that's no fun.