Eye

A little bit of background: I've had a lot of experiences since I was little of seeing imposing dark 'things' that emitted a sense of evil. Other times I have seen what I can only describe as ghosts of people, and also of animals that have made me jump - the sense was a good one, and sometimes caring. There have been times when I have been physically touched, such as being tapped on my arm as if somebody was trying to get my attention. These physical experiences have always felt very real that I expected to see somebody there. I have also experienced deja vu, known when an animal or person is going to die, sometimes by dreaming it the night before. There are times when I have an imminent sense of something bad about to happen - or a bad person with intention of doing harm in advance. I have had random names come into my head, then very shortly after a stranger by that same name will introduce themselves to me. I don't understand any of these things. My partner thinks it's my imagination, and that it defies logic. I know what I see, feel and hear, and I can't explain them away.

This year I suffered two heart attacks. The first, I don't know whether it was because of the pain and my mind was playing tricks, but I saw a rip open in the night skies and a brightness like the stars. I felt like I was heading towards it and experienced a general sense of well-being. But then it felt like the physical world was pulling me back. Then, there were black things, hundreds of them, between me and the bright vent. They were coming towards me as I lay on the floor, and they came right to the open window as if waiting. It felt like pure evil. And yet, they didn't enter the room.

I don't really understand any of this stuff, but it was the second heart attack that led me here. My partner says that it was like the cold touch of death had taken hold of me. I remember feeling freezing to the core. He didn't think I was going to make it. I don't remember much of what happened, but I saw an eye on the palm of my right hand. I kept showing it to my partner. I know he thinks I was hallucinating because of the pain or something. Perhaps I was? It was such a powerful experience that has left its imprint. I find it hard to believe that it wasn't there. I just wonder really, what any of this means. I've had hallucinations, but this was very different. I suppose I'm looking for some kind of answers, most specifically about the eye on my hand? Thank you for taking your time to read this.