Since I was a little girl, I can feel other people's thoughts and emotions. I have known when people are lying, I have felt spirits touch my skin. I hate walking down the street because when people look at me I feel like I know what they are thinking. It makes me paranoid and I thinks it just in my head and they are not really thinking it, but it happens all the time. It's draining me. One time I've heard someone whisper in my ear when I thought of saying something to a friend, the whisper was in my right ear like someone was standing right next to me. They said not to say that because it would alarm them. That spooked me and I haven't heard them since, but I get that feeling that they are watching me.
Just recently, when I was going to sleep, I instantly felt so cold, but it was a hot night. I was shaking and felt like I was having a fit, my eyes felt like they were rolling in the back of my head. I could hear people around me rushing me to hospital, people crying and ambulance people working to save me. The sound of Death, Dead and Dying were coming to via thought. It was a struggle to wake up. I thought it was a few minutes, but it was a few hours that I was experiencing this. I still feel very drained from this.
My question is, is it real and how do I stop this from draining me and making me paranoid to the point where I don't want to go out? I am happy that I have a gift, I just want to be able to stop it from ruining my life. I used to try and avoid it, but life would slap me in the face, so I'm trying to work with it, but feel like its controlling everything:- (