When I was walking out of Starbucks with a friend, I heard a woman screaming "Call 911!" and she starting shrieking in shock. I went to see why and I saw a lady sitting in the pedicure chair unconscious. I felt this tingling through out my body. It was like a pressure inside of me was pushing against myself, something I have never ever experienced in my life. I didn't know how to react, and my intuition felt like she was actually dying. My body felt overwhelmed, like as if even myself was detaching from my body. I tried to calm down--part of it I knew was shock because I have never seen a person die before. But I want to know this weird feeling that I felt was because I knew she was dying or if it was all just shock? I want to know if the weird pressure feeling in my mind was because I knew she was dying right in front of me.
I came home crying of guilt because I didn't help or stick around until the ambulance came, I just left. And right now I have such a heavy guilt in me for not doing anything. I was impacted immensely but I just left and didn't help.
I am an empath, I am extremely sensitive, and slowly developing the gift of being a medium (according to another medium who I know).
My questions are:
Is what I felt really me witnessing and knowing someone died or really was it all shock although my "gut" or intuition says that she died?
Is it bad that I just walk away, and not stayed even when I didn't know what to do?
Please help me out. I feel so guilty and confused of my feelings and what I felt at the time. I want to know if any other mediums out there have felt the same as me.