Lately, I have been experiencing odd things happening. I'm not sure if these things are just coincidences or not. When I was little I had an imaginary friend named charlie. I used to talk to him and even buckle up his seat belt. I don't know if that is important or not. I've always felt different than others. I've always been creative and loved art. Ever since I could remember I have always felt like no one could fully understand how I felt. I feel like I have always felt like I don't fully belong in this world or something is missing. Ever since I can remeber I have always loved animals, have always had animals and enjoyed their company more than people's company. When I was little I had a pet guinea pig and I knew she was pregant. I cannot explain how I knew, I just knew. My mother did not believe me and one day after school I came home to a cage full of dead hairless babies. She had given birth and the babies were born too early. I have always felt like I wasn't alone. I feel spirits following me but I have never seen one. When I was younger my bed would vibrate or shake when I would try to sleep. I have seen some kind of figure or small creature in the dark in my kitchen when I was young. I have also gotten a picture of a spirit, she had long white hair, young oval face and her head was tilted. The weirdest thing is that I honestly do not know why I took the picture I just did. Another weird experience is that I had a dream I was pregnant. The next day my best friend told me she was pregnant. I have noticed a lot of these odd things happening recently. I can't tell if they are coincidences or not. Recently, I was thinking about how I wanted a duck to cook again abd couldn't wait for one to be on sale because they are so expensive. Later that day I found one over half off. Another weird experience I have had is when I was meditating I couldn't clear my mind and kept thinking about a particular book I have been wanting to read. I let a friend borrow it and never got it back. Five minutes later on this friend who I haven't talk to or seen in years messages me. He said he was moving soon and still had my book, he said I could come get it. These strange occurences are really confusing me. I should also note that I have extremely weird vivid dreams almost every night. Sometimes I can change what happens in them when I get scared or do not like what is happening. They are sometimes so mystical or weird I am amazed at them. I have had a lot of dreams of having pressure in my mouth and my teeth falling out. I also have had a lot of zombie dreams.
Recently I had a dream of a large goat that was decaying and had some bone showing. He was evil and I tried to kill him with a chef's knife but as I did he grew taller. He told me I could not kill him because I was scared of him. The same night I also had a dream my house was haunted and dark. Pots and pans were falling, things were moving and an evil dog that was mine in my dream but I don't have in real life bit me. I threw it out of the house and while I did this a couple cats ran in. I tried to throw them out and more ran in. This happened until there were to many to count.
Today after I meditated I feel like energy is running through my body. It is very dull almost like a very dull vibration. Yesterday is the first time I have ever meditated. Is this normal? I should also mention that I feel like I understand people. I feel like I know their true feelings. For example, someone may be rude and arrogant but I feel they just have low self esteem. I am almost always right about these gut feelings becacause later the person will tell me how they really feel. I also feel whether people are good or not. I can feel vibes from them and it was always been pretty accurate. This has always kept me safe and away from negative people. I don't know whether these things happen to everyone or not. Are these just coincidences?