Before I share my story that is sort of troubling me, I will share a little something about my past. Forgive my ramble, I tend to do so when I seem to have a lot to say & unsure how to properly phrase it. However, I will do my best. Alright, here we go.
Ever since I was born, everyone knew I was "special". I've always been able to feel others emotions & energy as well as being able to see things that weren't really there. As a kid, my family would say that it's due to an overactive imagination. My family would say that I am an oversensitive person with an imagination greater than most to which now I know isn't the case. Since birth, I've been an empath, medium & so much more. It was quite troubling for me. Simply because my mother has always been aware of such things but prefers to label it as otherwise & neglect whatever cannot be explained. Her sister, my aunt, also had the gift if receiving messages from those whom have crossed over through her dreams. But what triggered it all for me was the death of my father at the age of 8. I feel like I've been always been different but when he fell sick, I just knew that whatever I was grew. It was very difficult for me. I got withdrawn by everyone around me. I turned extremely solitary. My mother had no idea how to deal with me because I was only an 8 year old girl. She was scared. I remember to this day, when my mother told me that my father passed away, I didn't cry or anything. I simply replied "I know" in a low voice. His death cause a lot of problems between my mothers side & my fathers, which lead me to suffer from a trauma due to all of that. I went to see a psychologist which didn't help me. I didn't talk & sadly, it only taught me to lie in order to hide how I was truly feeling. It was then, that I started to notice a hue around the psychologist & people. As well as object which I now know is Aura. Anyways, I won't ramble to long about my past but I just wanted to share what I went through in my childhood. It truly magnetized my gifts (what I thought then was a curse).
Now, let's fast forward to today. I'm a healthy 26 year old woman. Aware of who I am but still learning because I am discovering that my gifts are growing. I no longer see as what I have as I once did, a curse, but a blessing. Sure, we all have harder days, such as now but I am aware of who I am & welcome my new gifts/powers as they come. I always have one rule which is "to do no harm". When I help an earth-bound spirit, it is to help him/her see the light & go through it. Luckily, my boyfriend is aware of it. We don't speak about it in detail because it could be a little confusing but he is aware of such things & knows that there is more then meets the eye. I recall, once I helped this gorgeous little boy cross over, he was confused & wasn't aware he was dead. He was truly beautiful. I helped him crossover to the light but before he did, he looked at me & said "thank you miss, can I hug you before I go up there?" I replied "of course!" We hugged, so tight & I caressed his face. He held my hand before going to the light. I got so emotional. I started to cry. I told my boyfriend. He held me tight & simply said "you brought him to a better place, he is happy & where he belongs." Gosh, sometimes it's not easy but when you do the right thing, it's rewarding. Anyways, all that to say, I am glad that my boyfriend is there to help me. Makes it easier for me because a lot of my family members (especially my mother & sister, aren't ones I can speak to about it). Even if I have my moms sisters, my aunts that I can.
Forgive my rambling!
Now, why am I here? Lately, I've been sensing something odd. I can't seem to understand what it is. I had a wonderful weekend with my boyfriend. Sunday was the perfect laidback day before starting the week. Am I stressed? No, not at all because work has slowed down a little which gives me time to do a bit of paperwork cleanup. However, for some reason, waking up on Monday, I felt beyond strange. It feels like I'm sleeping but I'm wide awake. I still feel that way today. I took nice long showers yesterday & this morning. I even meditated & called used my tarot, crystals & even tried skyring to see what it could be but that feeling isn't gone. Worst part, my boyfriend has been feeling the same. We haven't done anything to trigger it. I have been psychic for a very long time & know not to play around with entities or earth-bound because some could very well be malignant. Feeling like I'm asleep but awake, it's as if my entire body is numb. That same numbness that occurs when you are falling asleep. Everything is enhanced. Lights seem brighter too & yet not at the same time. I know, it might sound crazy but I have no idea where to turn too... I probably don't make any sense but I tried to explain my situation to my mother but she tries to rationalize it by saying is the weather but the weather is due to what I am feeling... Everything is connected & I don't know who I am channeling. I also keep having blackout dizzy spells but I managed not to faint. Again, my health is 100%. I went for my annual about a month ago, same for my man, & we are both healthy & clean. So, what could it be?
I know that ever since I went vegan, my gifts have grown. Before anyone says that I am lacking nutrients or vitamins, please read above. I stated that my boyfriend & myself are very healthy. Clean Bill of Health.
I also want to mention that, I did a cleansing & I will be doing another one tonight. I just don't like feeling like I cannot control "this". Being able to have all these gifts, one shouldn't feel such a way... Which is why I am seeking your help.
I really appreciate it.
Again, forgive my ramble:)
Positive Vibes to all!