I am a twenty-four-year-old, ordinary person who tries to stay detached from the general and even so from the exceptional. Call it, a need to be neutral (though sometimes it is hard).
I am experiencing something I don't know how to categorize. I dream a lot but like any other person only certain dreams make a 'remark'. My dreams separate to three kinds: Such that display things from my past, dreams that carry a wise message (literally) and dreams with extraordinary scenarios. These 'extraordinary' dreams are ever so chaotic and hard to follow/read.
It started back in 2004 (or at least then I became aware it was happening). I remember I dreamed a huge amount of water and everything around me was devastated. It was horrible. Later on, I heard on the news that earthquake hit Sri Lanka, followed by tsunami. And I dreamed such a chaotic dream once again in 2011, the Touhoku earthquake, Fukushima's disaster.
It never evolves around my personal life, it never did. The dreams go real shortly after. I also dreamed a fire that 'devoured' a whole train in an exact hour, and it happened. Another dream was about a family I never met - a poor family, a single parent and a child. The child died from starvation and the main topic in my dream was how hypocritical humans are, for the village cared only after the death of the child (offering food, clothes, flowers). I felt really sad when I woke up, and I was glad it was just a dream until one day, a month later, I saw that on the news.
The most recent 'nightmare' I had involved massacre on different places. I moved to different settings but no matter where I went, I saw blood and people dying. Of course I saw different symbols in my dream but I couldn't understand the meaning. Later on the same day, I heard from a friend about the massacre in Kuwait, France and Tunisia. In fact that friend mentioned that just because I shared my horrible dream from my nap, I didn't even make it to the news to see the dream going real.
Am I imagining things or I go beyond just a dream?
Why am I seeing this if I cannot do anything? Is it just 'watch and suffer'? Because after these dreams I feel sorrow, remorse and by no means my mood is merry. I really dislike it, but I cannot control these dreams. I even brush them off so I don't leave any room for my subconscious to continue it or 'make up' dreams.
I searched for people with similar 'problem' but so far I bumped into people that supposedly see the future through dreams however it evolves only around their personal life.
Can I somehow shut this off? It really makes me suffer, watching horrible 'scenarios' just to find out later on they are true.
I read the guidelines about not publishing dreams unless they affect one's real life. Well, they do affect not only me but the world as well.
Thank you for reading my story to an end.