That is the only way I can possibly describe this. It is not like a literal battlefield. It is more like a swarm of feelings, shadows and warm and cold breezes twirling against each other, against me or around me. It is as if these things are fighting each other to get my attention but only when I am alone. Whenever I try to concentrate on one thing like the sudden urge to research something I know nothing about or a simple uncommon feeling, I see something pop up out of the corner of my eye, causing me to disregard the former. Sometimes I can even feel how I am almost forcibly pulled from whatever I am focusing on and it's the twirling all over again.
At some point it got so bad that I was barely able to do my daily work, because I was completely overwhelmed and distracted. That was when I started to meditate. So I would be able to control this impressions or to block out everything if needed.
It's a lot better since then. This 'battlefield' no longer distracts me and I am able to ignore it even though it is always there. I've learned to live with it.
What really disturbs me is the fact that it is not present when I am around people or animals. According to everything I've read so far it should be the other way around. There is this theory I have that people simply 'overwrite' this storm with their own auras (if that is even possible) because, for me, it is far from calming to be in a crowd. There are still different feelings and I am almost always able to know it when someone is happy, angry, stressed out, lying to me or telling me the truth. Sometimes I am even able to predict what someone is going to do.
It is different with animals. I am always calm around them and they seem to like me. It happened more than once that pets that their owners described as 'not to like strangers' were friendly towards me on the first second on.
And as if I am not having enough issues right now, there is that constant feeling of being watched. It started about a month ago. This kind of feeling when someone is standing right behind you, looking over your shoulder, and you can feel the hairs on your neck standing up. However, like the battlefield, is vanishes the moment I am not alone any more.
I know all of this sounds utterly crazy but maybe there is someone who might know what this 'battlefield' is supposed to be or why it's so aggressive (because I am pretty sure that this 'being watched' is linked to it).
It is clearly different from the energies I can feel around animals or people.