I remember growing up I was different than everybody. I basically lived my life blinded as if there was a scarf tied around my head. I was only eight years old in School knowing what is inside the books without looking at it. I came from a home that was a repeated cycle of violence, drugs, and tons of men in and out the home. I came from a very unstable household that allowed me to see a lot. I seen nothing but death all around me. I remember I was sixteen years old and I had a dream of a black helicopter landing in a field across the street from me. I am 23 years old, I seen the black helicopter land in the exact same way I dreamed it would. The same landscape and figure was the exact same way in person. The helicopter is in reference to me as well. I am able to blurt out things out of my control that turns out to be true. I have no absolute way of even knowing how I say the things I say. I was involved in domestic abuse for two years and experienced events of pulling people repeatedly towards me. The entire time I was being beat, my best friend was being beat. I came home to find out she was in a coma, later she died. I go through events of other people lives and it feels weird. I have no absolute way of trying to control this nor the things I see.
When incidents happen to me, something causes me to sit there. I draw people to call me, or either somebody will send me weird mail at the time that later leads to something else. This is like playing the game connect the dots. It's the feeling of being frozen and you are unable to respond to events that is happening. I have been sleep and heard someone numerous times calling my name. I will wake up and say "huh", but nobody calls me. I have seen things out the corner of my eye, as if someone is standing there. I looked to the end of the halls, but nobody there. I would often seen small colored crystals in the corner of my eye after rubbing it. I lived in my Dad house and experienced strange events. He owned a house-robe that came up missing out of the closet. The house coat was just in the closet when I checked, and it was gone for weeks. He came into the living room three weeks later, and said"the house coat is back in the closet on the clothes hanger. He had accused me of stealing it and placing it back into the closet. This is not the first time something has come up missing. I was in jail off of hatred and abuse their paperwork came up missing, or the jails would close for a long extended time. Anything to protect me will happen, and I can't explain it. I recently was in College and my sense got even stronger. I pull people through doors, make a person talk, and do what I want for them to do without touching them. I drawn people through doors, and even became employers at places that ended in a reason.
My presence makes people nervous and not wanting to be around me. They become paranoid once they have done something to me. At College, I have met people as soon as they walked out the elevators that was doing bad to me. I am speaking to you, but I am not aware of what I am saying or doing. I walk into Police Departments, and I will draw someone out the door that will basically tell me they are involved in an event that is harming me. They will tell me things that I have not even told them, and I do not know who the identity of the person that tells me this. Imagine leaving your house and seeing me repeatedly passing you on the highway. I have done my Father the same way. I leave the house at random, sometimes not at all. No matter what time or day it is, you are going to see me pass you. I can wake up out of my sleep and still see you. If you make a social media page trying to stalk me, I am going to come directly to you. I sense you there, but unaware that I am.
I lived through pregnancy scares that turned out my to be my sister, and my ex boyfriend girlfriend that was pregnant. A situation occurred with me in the year of 2015 has woken me up. You will have to either sit down or shake me because I am not physically there. I spent years of my life trying to separate myself from my family. However, now I am completely estranged to them. I have walked into buildings not knowing why I am there until later. I feel as something is blocking me from talking either too much or telling me what to say. I blurt out stuff that I didn't know about that turns out to be true. If you have drugs in your car, and you are relevant to me, you will repeatedly keep seeing me passing you at random. I sit on social media and draw people towards me. I am able to smell food that isn't around, but next door at another house. I have no control over any of this. I have assisted with investigations that answered other people questions. This ultimately lead to an investigation that I had no idea about. I have no control over my mind nor what it does and it scares me at times. I can blurt out and say things to you in the mind frame that I am lying, but next thing you know I am not lying. My sense is so strong and it feels like something is leading me. Imagine talking to someone through someone else that is not completely all there. Imagine coming to speak to someone just to get information, but look to your left on the highway and see the same exact person passing you at random in another city. Imagine waiting in the parking lot for me without me knowing about it. I can randomly wake up or leave to come to you not knowing at all you were even sitting there. I re-live people lives that is around me in order to get out of this one or to protect myself. I wasn't aware of any of this because you will have to shake me, or something will have to wake me up. It feels like I have not had a chance to live my own life because this was the only way out of my life and to live the life I wanted to. I felt I was repeatedly knocked down and ordered to go with the flow with the way things was happening in order to get to where I am today. I see things nobody else can see and it's scary.