I'm not sure where to begin, so forgive me if this is broken or disjointed. I believe I've always had some level of visions in my life. But it hasn't been until very recently (within the last year) that I've really noticed these things come about. My visions in the past were limited to extreme circumstances (knowing that something big was going to happen at Disneyland one day and finally seeing a girl get beaten by her father - which freaked my friends out or the time I had a horrible feeling and wanted to get home when I was 8 and found out later that a crashing plane flew over where we were or connections to certain people (seeing memories of a friends' past that I had no knowledge of).
Last year a friend of mine passed away. I consulted my psychic (of 14 years) who told me the manner in which he died, which wasn't released to the public until a month ago. But in this session with her she also told me that I had the ability to see birth's and death's and that I had seen his death in April and began a course in my life so that people would be able to say goodbye to him.
I began shortly after that to go ahead with a dream of mine to move to LA. I asked a friend of mine to throw me a going away party at our local hangout and invite some friends. My friend who passed away came out that night and told me that he only came out to see me and say goodbye. Many other people got to see him that night as well and they all thanked me later for my going away - since it was really for him. But he died less than a week later and that was the last time anybody saw him. I didn't stay in LA. It wasn't right, I wasn't supposed to be there and quickly regretted going.
But then over Thanksgiving I had a vision that my paternal Grandmother was going to die in April around her birthday. She and I are very close. My vision came true, she died on April 2 (10 days before her birthday). Well, beside the grief and loss I was very freaked out. I tried to sleep in her bed (as bed space is limited in her house) the night before her funeral and had horrible nightmares that she was in the room with me trying to bring me to the afterlife with her.
Now I'm seeing all sorts of things! Much more than death.
I've been seeing a marriage that my sister is going to have in the next four years (to the day - Aug 11, 2012) and her two future children (thou she's not dating anyone). I'm seeing that the guy I'm dating and I will be living together in the next few months and will be together for a year and a half (though as of Sunday we've taken a setback). Among other things... But I'm also seeing a whole mess of death. One of my best friends I keep seeing passing away in August this year. I see my maternal grandmother dying in October. I see a good friend of mine going in about 9-10 years - much too young.
But then there are things I've felt compelled to tell people. I've recently advised my sister to stay at her job no matter what, even though she hated it, based on what I was seeing. Then she got fired. At least now she gets unemployment, but it's not really what I was seeing.
All of this is compounded as well with a severe knee dislocation that I've suffered. So I'm sitting with all of this information coming at me all the time and no way to validate or truly interpret it. But mostly, I'm afraid of the bad things being true and the good things not being true. How can I truly tell if what I'm seeing is real or not without the waiting game? How can I validate these feelings?
I suppose part of my problem is that it's been mostly feelings in the past and now I'm having visions - which don't always makes sense.
Am I really seeing these things or am I just confused? I know this is a bit long, but pretty vague. Let me know if any of this needs clarification.