I have always felt like I don't belong here, and not in the hipster kind of way, its just that I feel like there is something powerful inside me and I just can't figure it out, and honestly? It is tearing me apart, I feel like this super powerful connection with the nature and the moon...don't even get me started with the moon, it's like it calls me (I know, ridiculous right?) but its true, I could be hours watching and I'm just so frustrated that I feel that I have powers with nature and a deep connection with the inside of people that nobody ever sees. And I have this real powerful connection with animals that I don't feel none of them, I see the soul of the animal and I feel like the understand it, me, because the hear when I talk to them (I don't understand what they say when they "speak" and I don't think the do) but we have this enormous connection that I feel not most people have. Another bummer is that even tho I feel this deep connection with nature, I live in a chaotic city so I literally have cero connection with nature so I feel like this weakens me. I have tried to control water, air, earth and fire but nothing ever happens. Another thing that hypnotizes me is fire, there is something about it, not as powerful as the moon, but it is indeed something. It is driving me insane in some kind of way that I can't stop thinking about it anymore, like the more I think the more desperate I get, and obviously I can't tell anyone about it because they won't believe and think I've gone mad. I have read some articles here and I read of people that feel the same way but most of them actually have experienced things with the elements and that would be my DREAM. I feel frustrated because I know I have something inside me but I can't do Anything, anything at all and I've done it before but I just can't deal with it. In resume, I feel this super powerful connection with every living thing of nature, even things with no heartbeat like plants and the moon, but I have no hay of knowing if in just crazy or if it's real. Please if you have any recommendations tell me, I NEED to know something before I go real nuts.
Its like I'm connect to the earth but I don't have a way to prove it. I have tried moving things but it doesn't work
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I live really close to nature, on an island to be exact, so I've always been near water, trees and animals.
Everything you said describes me perfectly! I also have this extreme fear of living a normal life. I often wish to any higher power that exists to allow me to live an adventurous, out of the ordinary life, even if it requires taking risks or if it's dangerous.
I really like reading stories and especially fiction so I always find myself wishing I was lucky enough to experience something weird, magic, supernatural or just see what normal people can't see.
But then again I start wondering "Doesn't every human feel like that?" and think that maybe I'm just like anybody else and that what I feel is just in my mind...
Maybe it has something to do with my last life/lives so I'm going to see a woman my dad knows who's able to see spirits, guardian angels and she can tell me more about my past lives and the journey of my soul until now. I hope she'll help me find out more about all that... I'll let you know once I do because we are extremely similar.
Oh, I just remembered that when my dad visited this woman he told her "Once I saw (my name) as a baby she truly looked like an angel!" and she replied with "Not all souls that reincarnate as humans were humans before". When he told me about it it really hit me hard and I felt like I was finally really close to an answer...
Anyway I'm really happy to know someone else out there experiences the same things I do! I hope we'll find out why soon enough! 😊