On my last story I posted a few thing about myself but I think that I left some things out: (english is not my first language so if I wrote something wrong please forgive me)
* I have this huge need of protecting the others, I thought that it was that because I'm a female I had this mom-ish thing from the beginning, but I'm starting to think its not that. I have to be fiscally strong and agile and mentally strong and not cry never to be the strongest of them all to be able to protect anyone who needs it, that takes to my next point.
* I have this urge to learn how to fight, but I have this instinct telling me that if I had to fight someone I would know what to do, like I already know how to fight but I have never fought before. Its like my body is telling me that I'm meant to be a fighter, a guardian, in every way, cause the protecting-being-the-strongest-thingy.
* I feel like I'm not human, I mean I was born at least in a human body with human family and I have human feelings I guess. But I feel like I'm not human, I don't know how to say it but I feel like I don't belong here, that the humans are one thing an I'm something else, in some ways I feel bad for them because its like the don't get to feel this thing that inside me that is like a blessing and curse at the same time. I don't like what the humans in general like, I mean that I rather be in a forest in the middle of nowhere with no phone, no internet, 100% nature and looking at the night sky, than to be in a party, or shopping, or stuff like that.
* Like I said in my last post I feel like I have this powers deep inside me, and I get this "strokes" some times that its like they come to the surface begging e to come out, so I feel anxious, I don't know how to express it, but the feeling is so hard that I end up crying, that actually how I found this website, because I was desperait to know what the heck was happening to me.
* I have this powerful connection with nature and animals, I actually want to be a vet because of the deep union with them, but I mean, one of my biggest dreams is to go to the middle of the forest and be barefoot and with animals and, idk, jut that this connection is deeper than a pet love, its like I can understand them, trough our feelings, like out souls talk.
* I've already mentioned that I feel like and outsider that doesn't fit in, I love movies and books, but the sci-fi type. For example, I know its a children's movie, but I feel a connection with "The rise of the guardians" Because I feel like I have this connection with the moon, like in the movie that its telling me that I'm special, I feel kind of like jack frost but without the powers, I feel like I'm a guardian and I have this powers inside me but I don't now how to use the or make them come to the surface, and like Jack, I don't know why the chose me if "the" are not telling me why me. Why do I feel like this if I can't use it
I'm sorry I made it so long but I needed to say something because I'm loosing my mind, I need to know I'm not crazy, or that its not all just in my head.
If you can relate in any kind of way, please comment or send me an email to AresWulf911@gmail.com