If I started this from the beginning it would take all day. I'll try to keep it brief and get straight to the point. I've been empathic or at least feel that I have ever since I was three or four years old. As I've gotten older my empathic powers have gotten stronger. Manifesting as physical symptoms, headaches, sometimes I'll get sad or angry or worried for no reason. Sometimes I have physical pain such as if someone hurt their arm then mine would hurt also for a time.
Sometimes I wonder if I'm clairvoyant or clairaudient. I've experienced "deja vu" a lot. Like I'm reliving the same day over or as if someone just pressed rewind on my day and started it at the beginning again. I can predict what people will do or say then they do it.
When I started sensing sprits, which was about four years ago; it started small. My grandmother's spirit was the main one. After she died I saw a figure in my room that looked exactly like her staring at me. When she died I felt it in my sleep and woke up and just knew she was gone. That's when I looked over and saw her.
She couldn't have been more than five feet from me. Yet it was impossible for her to be in there because she hadn't left her room in months.
Other spirits like the one of my friends deceased father, visit me in my dreams. In my dream we converse but I can not remember what about and when I try to recall the dream the audio seems "cut out".
The third spirit which was tonight was of a girl named Amelia. She had died in a hospital as a result of some trauma and I believe she died on the table.
This all took place in the chatroom and others aside from myself felt her and described her and what was going on. I even found her on the net. That was the first time I'd found a ghost or had a spirit connection with someone not related to me or someone around me. She was a total stranger to me.
What's weird is I could hear her voice in my head and I'd get bits and pieces such as images of the hospital. Like a bunch of little pieces to one big puzzle.
That was a total first for me and it all started when I got a vibe off of someone in the room. Someone who felt "sad" and I got it out of a chatroom no less.
The other thing is I've had a weird string of luck. I've not won the lottery or anything but when certain due dates on assignments pass and the assignments are late the teachers give me a lot of chances.
I MEAN ALOT! Sometimes they only give the chance to me because they tell me not to tell anyone else about it. So I don't know what that's about. I don't think I'm teachers pet. I don't know the teachers that well and I don't converse with them much AND my grades aren't, well there not all that "great". Like a C average.
Going back to the third ghost. Someone in the chatroom told me the spirit sensing was a form of mediumship and remote viewing because I connected to her before she died and stayed connected after she passed.
My questions are: Why is this happening now? Why am I getting new powers? How do I control them and make them stronger? How do I stop or lessen the side-effects?
I just want to know. This is all getting ahead of me a bit. My powers are coming and its hard to keep up. They just shut on and off and not when I want to which is so frustrating.
Help and some mentoring would be greatly appreciated.
Your ability is going to do what it wants to do. You should find it a blessing rather than something to control for selfish purposes. Relax and let it flow. Always use it for selfLESS purposes and open yourself up to the divine positive energies of the universe. Learn more about the unseen energies of plants animals and crystals. Your gift cannot be forced- this is a negative thing to do and it will only bring negative energy (disappointment, frustration) to you if you continue this way.
Love and light