i don't know why I have this? Is it because I'm crazy? Did I do something wrong to get this? I think it all started about four years ago. I was laying in bed and I looked at the clock and it said 9:30 p.m. I sat up so fast as if I was scared but I was not. I could only look at the red light on the fire alarm. It kept moving back and forth up and down and in circles. But still I was not scared.
My girlfriend had sat up and said, "Are you ok?" I looked at her and said I was fine but I think the fire light is broke. She said well come back to sleep it's 10:45 p.m. I don't remember staring at that light for that long. So where did that time go?
After that I felt fine for about 2 months. Then I started to know things about people that I shouldn't have known.
I could see their thoughts as if they were my own I could touch something and know who had it where it came from and everything about this person. Then it got worse. I started to hear voices but not the 'I'm crazy' voices. Its like real people talking. I figured out that these people had passed.
I thought I could handle this so I just went with it. We tried to test it to see what I know. So my lil sis told me to come to her house to see if I could tell her about this guy she was dating that I have never met. As soon as I got to her house I could feel him as if he was there. I knew everything about him; hair color, how tall he was, that he smoked, that he was not good for my sister.
After that, I tried to put it deep inside myself because I don't want this any more then it got even worse. I started to see people that have passed and this has scared me the most.
I was working at a school and behind the school was a cemetery. I had to call my mom because I could see so many people just staring at me. And I knew they knew I could see them. After that, I have not spoke about it alot. I just keep all of it to my self. I don't see the people anymore but I do see pictures of things: books, plants, numbers, letters, places and I don't know what all this means.
Now, for the last four months, it's just been noisy in my head like standing in a room full of 1000 people that are all telling a story at the same time and I can't hear just one story. It's getting louder every day. Every day my hair gets more and more gray. Please tell me how to stop it and how to make it go away. I don't want this in my life. Or tell me I'm crazy so I can get help. I'm tired because I can't sleep. Its like this phrase in my head, "You can't get water from an empty well." What does this mean? I don't get why this has to happen to me. Please help me turn it or point me in the right direction.