I now know that I have been an Empath as far back as I can remember. I just didn't know that was what it was until recently. I have what I think are maybe a few different abilities, but I'm not exactly sure what they are. I am just now really beginning to learn about them and really pay attention to them. It seems as though as of lately, whatever they all are called, they are all getting stronger. I will begin first with my story of being an Empath.
Every since I was little, I have been able to sense what people are feeling. Actually it goes way beyond that. I not only can sense the feelings, I feel them myself. I know the minute I walk into a room, how the atmosphere is. I can tell if it is tense, strained, happy, sad, basically all of the emotions possible. I can tell before talking to someone if they are a negative energy, and have sensed it so strongly at times, that I have to leave before ever talking to a person. Unfortunately, until just about a month ago, I didn't know there was a name to it for one, but also, I certainly didn't view it as a gift or know how to handle it. I have always just been told that I'm too sensitive, emotional, over-reactive, shouldn't get so emotionally involved, etc. I couldn't help it, and to a certain extent, I still can't.
My Mom is what I call a "Jedi level guilt tripper." She can send you before you have time to pack on the worst guilt trips ever. Unlike my brother growing up, I was not able to not fall for them. I would feel guilty every time and would worry about it to the point it would make me sick. That is just one of the many examples of how being such a sensitive person has not been an easy feat at all. I have been married for over 9 years now, and although I love my husband dearly, he tends to be a very negative, and emotionally aggressive energy a lot. I always sense it, and take it on as my own feelings before I realize it. I can be in a wonderful happy mood, and he can come home in a very stressed or angry mood, and before I know what hit me, I'm right there with him the minute he steps in the door. He doesn't even have to say anything for me to feel it too.
Positive moods and energy have the same effect. I can take those feelings on just as well and easily as the bad. The old saying that "laughter is contagious" is very true for me.
It has taken a toll on me to certain extent, though. I suffer from Fibromyalgia, Chronic Fatigue syndrome, and a couple other auto-immune issues that I now think could possibly be a result of years of suffering the negative feelings of others. I am still trying to learn and figure out how to shield myself from other people's emotions.
I'm not sure as to why, but it seems as though over the last few years, my Empath abilities have grown stronger and stronger. I want to learn how to shield myself, and to be able to control what emotions I want to feel without making myself sick as I have done in the past. Now, my 8 year old daughter is really showing signs of abilities of her own including, or maybe I should say especially Empath abilities. I want to know not only how to control and understand this for myself, but also for her so that she can have someone who understands and can help her unlike I did.
Does anyone have a special trick or tip on what works best for you when shielding, and second, I have seen different sites mention being an Empath as a gift. I know there probably is an upside and gift to this ability, but what exactly is that? I want to learn as much about this as I can so that I can use this to the best of my ability.
To keep this story from being too long, I will post a separate story for questions regarding what my other abilities might be.
I would greatly appreciate if someone can shed some light on any of this for me.