I am just beginning to come into the knowing that I have psychic abilities, mostly prominently the ability to feel what others are feeling and even thinking lately. I'm beginning to feel a little ahead of myself because I just get this sense that people I speak to KNOW that I know things about them even if I haven't even said anything. A lot of people love that about me and feel I'm just a good listener (I genuinely love to listen and help) but I noticed with the more closed off people this is the people who get most offended and I'm just trying to learn how to curb things down a big when I'm around these types.
I know I have always been very empathetic growing up and as a kid I have been SO drawn to nature. I grew up in the woods and as a kid I would just wander through the woods (we lived in safe place) for hours at a time and just feel so safe and especially at night time, I can't explain it, but I always felt the most drawn to the night time and even today at the age of 28 I love walking in the dark.
I feel like I have this kinship I can't explain with trees and like they protect me? I think I even know which trees like to be touched and many I just stand in complete awe and reverence.
I have always been very spiritual and did not come from a religious background per se (my own family didn't practice or go to church) and at the age of 8 I was always drawn to the bible and read it front to back--I've always felt drawn to Jesus. Now that I'm older I still use what I have learned from the bible as a footstone but I wouldn't consider myself religious at all. I am drawn to Spirituality and ever since I've been dabbling in meditation and reading Course in Miracles (alongside Urantia) I have been noticing things.
I noticed the other day I was carrying around this awful just dreadful dead feeling for part of a day and I just couldn't shake it but wanted so badly because I KNEW hey I was feeling this and I pray that it was not associated with the whole earthquake thing (I felt it 5/days before). I was thinking this is not mine, this is not mine, and it was just like suddenly it disappeared and I was happy and just gave it no more mind.
Lately I've been noticing that YES I do hear voices but why do they only say hello? The other day I was laying down close to sleep and it just woke me right out of my sleep 'hello' and just now I heard 'Hello?' like it was right beside me and I got up to check the window outside but nobody was there, it wasn't far away anyways. They just keep getting more frequent. A couple months ago I got this awful feeling a guy I grew really fond of that something was wrong. I had a dream that he walked through a pharmacy store and grabbed a bottle of meds, downed them and walked out. I didn't actually see his face in the dream but knew it was associated with him--I put it off and off and tried to just forget the dream thinking I was over thinking it. Well I finally got courage to call him and check up (I am in my own relationship) and found out he was so angry with the way his life was going (has high expectations to live up, fathers a Doctor, etc). But the strange thing is I started talking to him and everything that I told him seemed to make so much sense and it calmed him down so much and he was like I was right about everything. I brought up his brother who killed himself that he has always felt guilty about and when I said his brother would NEVER want him to live like that it was like it was coming from outside of me--like I was relaying it and It surprised even me. He immediately started crying like he was finally able to let that out.
Growing up I never was even aware how attuned to people's feelings I was through high school it was a miserable roller coaster ride most of the time. When I was 25 I finally got on meds to stabilize these highs and lows and finally when I got my doses down to almost nothing that is when I was finally able to get some sense on what was happening to me.
I grew up drawing all the time and just recently I learned of a thing called Spirit Art? I have only been able to advance in drawing people just by starting with a pair of eyes and then moving on to rest from my head so now I'm thinking I have this sense which I gave up but curious to try again. I am also very drawn to photographing buildings and trees.
One of the things that helped most is letting go of the toxic family relationships in my life and physically getting rid of the clutter I had stashed around my house holding on to all that--this gave me the sense of self I think I needed for me to get to this point and now it feels like things are coming full circle (well, this could be tip of iceberg, lol) and I can for once put things into perspective.
PS: I am of half Alaskan Native American descent (but adopted).