I've been interested and actively using gifts since I was 17. I tried Astral Projection, but never got farther than arms and legs:) but ever since then, all kinds of new gifts opened up to me, some slightly, and others grew over time. I have gotten quite proficient at channeling energies in humans and earth nodes, etcetera. This is why I am used to feeling things instead of hearing or seeing, and that will also explain certain aspects of my story.
There has however been one experience I had mostly forgotten about, and recently had a "dream" about it (more like I was reminded of it by someone).
Several years ago, I was at work, early in the morning. There weren't many people there at the time, and in retrospect, I am grateful for that. I found myself working in a storage place in the back of the store, when suddenly, I heard roughly several dozen voices in my head. I could clearly make out that these were not my thoughts, for they had different feels to each one of them. Some felt feminine, some masculine, had different colour and strength to my mind's eye. All in all, it was a cacophony of feeling, colour and voices in my head.
This came on so suddenly, literally in the blink of an eye, that I dropped whatever I was doing and reached for my head, which hurt insanely. I cried out and fell to my knees because of the sudden pain, and out of reflex, I suppose, threw up shields to keep those voices out. This worked most effectively, since the voices instantly ceased and the pain started to diminish. I wondered for a long time what that was, and did in fact classify it as telepathy, but in an unusual sudden outbreak, I think.
Later on, when I tried to reconstruct that sensation, albeit in a more secure, controlled fashion, I ended up constantly hitting a wall, literally and figuratively speaking.
Any attempts through meditation or practice to try my telepathic ability has failed so far.
I have reason to believe I am supposed to use this gift, but that is a different story. I read somewhere that prolonged blocking of telepathy can cause trauma to the third eye, not to mention cause severe headaches, which I have been having ever since the incident. I have noticed these headaches are getting more frequent, and I am beginning to worry.
I am not afraid of the gifts we have, I have done the research and had the experiences, and I have a natural curiosity that will always get the better of me, but I ask anyone who has answers, please help. How can I break down the shields I put up out of fear at that moment? How do I access my telepathic gift?