I am fourteen years old, and I'm awfully confused. If someone could help me figure all this out, that would be great.
Okay, this is a lot of information. Pay attention. I do sense the emotions of others. In that sole sense, I am an empath (is that what you call it?). However, it isn't that black- and- white. I can tell what some people are feeling much better than I can others, and sometimes I barely can at all. Stranger still, I can't tell what my own boyfriend is feeling, and I'm around him every day! He is a rather inward person when it comes to personal things, but I can't tell if it's that or that I'm just... Nothing special.
I know that it is normal for empaths to be exhausted at the end of the day. I usually am. I come home from school angry and anti- social. But that doesn't mean I am all the time. My lunch hour is second- to- last on my schedule, and I have a lot of hard classes in the morning, so by the time lunch rolls around I'm tired, cranky and can't concentrate very well. I get to see my boyfriend before school and during lunch. Somehow, I manage to be able to concentrate better in my last hour class than I can right before lunch. Also, I'm calmer then. Is it at all possible for a person's presence to calm someone down and help them concentrate?
There's more (isn't there always?). I am highly attuned to vibrations. I can feel someone walking towards me and, without even seeing them, tell who it is, but only if I know them. Is this just a good memory, or is it something different?
I know that my body is kind of crazy. I rust earrings in my ears. My feet and hands will feel like they are on fire while the rest of me feels like ice. I have an insane electromagnetic field. I shorted out a watch in two weeks just by wearing it every day. I can work on my laptop without the power cord for an hour one day, but I can do the same thing again the next day with a full battery again and it will only last fifteen minutes! I was in the computer lab with a class the other day, and suddenly my word processor froze. Within twenty minutes, half of the class was having problems! I know that the electromagnetic field originates in the brain. I know that psychism also originates there. Could they be connected?
And more! I like to mess around on the oujia board with my best friend in her basement sometimes. We almost always get something, and most of the time it is a spirit that likes to talk. A lot. We've also gotten a recurrent spirit named Leo. Is it normal to have spirits talk so much? And what about recurrent ones? I know that she and I are very closely connected. I don't really know much about oujia and spirits. Can someone explain that to me?
I know very little about all this, and I'm very confused. Please, give me some answers! If you have any questions, post them in a comment. I will try to answer them.