I am in love with the idea of having a spirit guide, someone who is always there, your best friend, someone that will never leave you and that is always looking out for your best interest. I strongly believe that such beings exist and that their only purpose in their life beyond ours is to help us. But see, I am just having a little trouble.
I meditate, quite regularly, but lately, I have not been able to open my chakras. I can see them, but only faintly and they are barely spinning. The colors are as though they are behind a black veil, shielding them from my eyes. I have never been able to fully contact my spirit guide, I know they are there, I know they wish to make contact, but I just can't visualize seeing them, feeling them. What is the problem? I am totally relaxed, in a trance and I see nothing but black. Is this because my spirit guide feels it is not best for us to meet at this time? Is it on my end? Is it the fact that I am not strong enough to maintain this relationship therefore it does not open itself too me? I am very interested in meeting my spirit guide, whoever they are and whatever they choose to show themselves to me as. It's just black, all I see is simple black. I can't feel him or her. There is no connection there and I am worried that they may have left due to me never contacting them. Is there any possible way this could happen?
Please, any tips or tricks as to how to see my spirit guide or simply feel or hear them. I want to make this contact, I want to have this best friend and I am willing to accept anything that comes with it. Am I the only one having this experience? Help?