You see, there's this boy in my gym class, his name is Jacob. He's been in at least one of my classes ever since 8th grade. We've never really talked, and we don't know each other well at all (mostly because he's one of the popular boys, and I'm just an average girl) But I've always felt like there was something different about Jacob. I could never quite put my finger on it. For some reason, to me he wasn't like the rest of the popular guys. One of the reasons, and one of the first things I noticed about him, were his eyes. They're absolutely amazing, hypnotizing I might say. They are an extremely bright and beautiful shade of blue. And though most people would love to gaze into eyes like that, I would always avoid them. Because every time he looked at me, he'd look straight into my eyes and I'd feel like he was looking right through me, so I'd quickly turn away. And every time id look at him, I'd look straight at his eyes, without even trying, and suddenly I'd feel his emotions for only a split second. I could always tell what type of mood he was in. And so when he was in a depressed or bad mood, and he'd look at me, Id suddenly get the feeling of wanting to cry.
And lately, things have become more extreme. Now I can't even stand to be near him. I feel like something strange would happen if I got too close. I always know when he's looking at me, it's like I can feel his eyes on me. For example one day in gym we were playing tennis, and he was on the court behind me. I felt him looking at me so I turned around, and sure enough he was looking at me, and I ended up making him miss the ball. It felt like every time I'd look at him he'd mess up. And no, this is isn't some classic high school crush, because I have a boyfriend, and I have no desire to be with Jacob. We are complete polar opposites.
So why do I feel this strange, deep strong connection whenever I'm around him? I can even visualize the connection; it's like a cord of some kind, white strands in the middle, surrounded by electric blue light, engulfed in a deep navy blue. What is this? And should I be concerned? Because another thing is that sometimes when I'm around him I feel tired or weak and I don't know why. Please I need some advice. I don't know whether I'm really feeling something, or it's all in my head. Help?