My name is Kayla I'm 14 and I don't know what's going on there are many things I want to talk about so please stay with me. I'll start from the beginning, since I was a kid I have had these white outs, they are like black outs but I don't pass out, I just see white and I can't hear, I get dizzy and I don't remember where I am for a few seconds.
In school when we were being asked questions or taking an oral test, I could always feel the teacher's victims, like the closer I was to them the worse my stomach hurt, and I could tell when I was going to be asked because of the feeling in my gut. I also get this feeling when something bad happens.
For example, I was sitting on the park at school and my stomach started really hurting, and then a few minutes later we heard this car crash and then the feeling went away and I was given this weird meaningful rhyme in my head, it went like this:
(Someone died on Friday (x3)
There shall be no survivors to salvage, for the
Lord Lucifer has come to collect their souls.
I am the messenger of the dark and the merk of the depth.
(I spelled it like that for a reason)
And after I had said that I had just started laughing and smiling... I don't believe in that but I'm wondering if it has a meaning.
I have never really felt like I belonged with humans, whenever I interact with them including my family I get this feeling like I just want to pull away or I want to hurt them. I can't really help it, and
Sometimes I feel uncomfortable in my own home like I'm really not supposed to be here.
When I'm sleeping I get these really weird dreams, that usually have something to do with water or they are really evil. [My role model is Poseidon]. I have very good intuition, like I can tell when people are lying, I can feel their emotions and I can feel other peoples injuries and pain. I don't know if this matters or not but I believe in the Greek gods, and I believe that there are demigods but not to which extent that there are camps they train in, like the Percy Jackson movie.
Sometimes I feel like I'm being followed and watched by something unfamiliar, and at school and sometimes in my house I hear voices greeting me and whispering my name over and over and when I look around there's either no one there or no one is trying to talk to me. This is really scaring me because I don't know how to handle this or what to do with it.
I think I had an out of body experience, but I don't know how to control them,
Example2: One day in my house I was standing on the stairs and my sister was across the room and I just zoned out and the next thing I see is flashing white with a background of my living room and then I could see myself on the stairs, I think my spirit was standing behind my sister and then it was over...
Some of the things I can do is control small amounts of things in water while I'm meditating, but I really want to expand it and learn how to control water itself. I feel like I'm connected to water, I don't want to sound cliché, but I have a "bond" with it. It makes me more comfortable and I can think clearer when I'm in or near it.
I also think that I might be a bit telekinetic but I'm not sure
Example 3: Another time in my living room I was just sitting on my couch staring at a little plastic blue table, and after about 2 minutes it jumped and the heat went on. It creeped me out immensely. Again, I don't know if this matters or not but I can sometimes predict who is calling like a minute before they call.
I often try to meditate to enhance what I have and it worked a bit once, but it won't work now. I have also heard that there are some psychic vampires, that suck your powers, and I think I may have a friend that is one, she's always making me miserable and saying I can't do anything special she lives next door to me and I don't know what to do about it.
And just out of interest I would like to research and learn how to perform telepathy, precognition, resonation, empathy, lucid dreaming and last how to read auras, if anyone could recommend any books that could help me understand this or give any advice, I would really appreciate it. Sorry for all the paragraphs but thank you for taking the time to read my article J