I am a 26 year old, happily married mother of one who is pregnant with her second child, I am writing because of the fear inside me, I fear my relationship is being hurt by these strange "abilities" I have had throughout my entire life.
From the beginning as a child I felt watched, I would be so scared of this feeling, soon it would pass, by me moving to another city, or out of a home. I also have dreams of things that happen years prior to them happening, I get a strong feeling of deja vu and it makes me extremely scared, I feel like someone is going to hurt me.
I should also say, the worst times are not now, at one point in the old place we lived in, I would wake up to a demon figure coming up from my husband's body, I would wake up to him choking me, I was so scared, I did some versus my dad gave to me to see if it would get this scary thing out of my life, it seemed to make this thing weak, but it seems to follow me.
As of lately, I am 5 months pregnant, give or a take a week, my aunt died not too long ago, and I did an intervention on my mother, since this I have been tormented by ghosts of some sort, during the day or night, they invade my dreams, I keep having dreams with my aunt in them and my mother, and who I believe to be my grandfather (I never met him) and other family members I have never met, they keep trying to talk to me, and they are yelling at my mom, and then she dies, I feel she will die soon, and I feel since I am in a weakened state, these ghosts are coming into my life to taunt me. Well last night I was very annoyed, instead of the usual touching my hand, laying next to me in bed, ect, I felt like someone spilled water on me, I jumped out of bed, thinking it was my sons baby bottle spilling, but my son was not in the room, as usual, before I see anything, my son gets scared, wants his father, and wants far away from the area I'm in, this hurts, but as I realized my son was not in the room, I also could breath, like I was drowning, I took a deep breath and tried to shrug it off and go back to bed, as soon as my head hit the pillow (I wear ear plugs) I heard crying, thinking it was my son, I took the ear plugs out, the crying stopped, I put them back in an encountered screaming, I took them out, and it stopped, totally freaked out I went to get my husband, and told him I was scared and please to come sleep with me, he was annoyed as usual, but understanding to the extent someone who isn't going through this could be. I kept being woke up in the middle of the night and I am dead tired.
This morning as almost every morning, I wake up and look at the clock, annoyed of not getting any sleep, the clock says 5:45 AM, I go pee, get in bed, the minutes have not changed, but the clock says 6:45AM, this happens about every morning once I have had these things happen to me, it bugs me and worries me, I just want a normal life, my son is affected, and now I have a new thing happening, (one I don't actually mind) I feel like my unborn child I very close to me, and I'm so connected to her, I feel like she is speaking to me, I feel I'm going crazy in a way, is there a way to make this stop or control it a little more? Thank you for your time.