Something came to my attention that I never noticed before.
All my life I have going into peoples heads, and reading there aura's and stuff without even noticing that I went past mental blocks that they had. They never felt it or realized it. I never realized I did this... But It's like a urge that I have to do.
I can hold it back but only for so long because it fights back to get out. When it does break my hold, It's like a dam breaking. When I do attempt to hold it, Its like fighting with myself and my breathing quickens and I can't stay still.
Recently, I met up with this person who has a mental block that I never encountered before. I don't want to say who but it was a dangerous block. When I started talking to that person I couldn't feel anything instantly, so I went into the person's head to get something. (something I naturally do) I met up with the mental block, I touched it, But I stopped because I got dizzy. I didn't want to go through completely because I wasn't sure about it. But my ability kept trying to go deeper into this person's head. But as soon as I touched it, I got the aura out of this person and stuff that made me relax. I don't know what exactly. It made me relax but my ability wasn't satisfied.
I asked that person to help me fix this problem that I have, because I wouldn't want to die one day by a mental block.
I did what the person told me and I stopped it.
As soon as I did it. Pressure began to build behind my eyes and nose... It's like sinus pressure. And the voice in my head told me that this will do stop. Then My voice said I was going to hurt myself.
I stayed as long as could with it but, it started to build and build, but I couldn't concentrate or anything and I had trouble seeing and feeling all weird. It was not a good feeling.
I tried stop keeping it in, but I still have the sinus pressure, and I don't think I let the the ability out fully because it's still fighting with me. Some of it left.
So I don't know what to do because I can't keep fighting it because it's hurting me. Its something I always did and had since I was little. I don't know what wrong.
Why does it keep doing this me?