My name is Anthony. I'm seventeen years old and I have had psychic abilities ever since I was a small child. My Mother and Sister also have psychic abilities, although theirs are much milder than mine. So for now I will only tell about my abilities. The gift began, for me, as something extremely simple, dreaming of the future. Whenever I had a dream it would come true within the next few days. I've had dreams of things as simple as a coming storm to things like the death of my Grandmother. I thought that my gift would be limited to that, but I was mistaken.
A few years after my first precognitive dream my abilities took a leap forward. I was sitting at my computer and had an actual vision of the future. During that time my family was having trouble with our landlord and we were in need of a new place to live. My Mother was concerned that we wouldn't find a place in time. The vision I had was of my entire family sitting inside a house that we originally thought we wouldn't get. When I told my mom this, she acted skeptical. She told me that there was no way that I could know what was going to
I believed her and then decided to ignore the vision. However as the days went by I found that I was able to tell what was going to happen at least a few days in advance. When the time came that we had to find a new place to live, we managed to get the house that I had said we would live in. Ever since then my Mother listens to me when I tell her what is going to happen.
Not long after my visions started I started getting odd waves from people. These waves would tell me what they were thinking and feeling. Every time someone came near my I could sense everything they felt. At first this was extremely disorientating. I was having trouble telling if I was getting angry or if it was someone I was standing near. After a little while I figured out on my own how to separate my emotions form the emotions of others... By suppressing my emotions.
If ever I became too emotional I would take whatever I was feeling and push it deep inside me. Now I am able to deal with what others are feeling and help them through their problems. It was going good until I realized that I was also getting vibes from what seemed to be nowhere. I ignored this and tried to focus on individual people eve when they weren't near me. That's when I discovered that if I concentrated on someone I could find them wherever they were.
After I discovered this new part of my gift I decided to try and figure out where those waves, which appeared to have no source, came from. That was when I learned that I could also communicate with spirits. This was a frightening thing to learn for a young person but I was able to deal with it in time. I eventually began using my powers to help spirits cross over if they wanted to.
After a while I decided to tell two of my close friends about my experiences. They responded by telling me that they too had psychic abilities. Although they could not do as many things as I could they were all very good at their own gifts. Both of them could see the future, one could while she was asleep the other while she was awake. We became so excited that we began to look though the internet to find other forms of the gift and see if we had it.
It was then that I discovered that I could manipulate fire. It started as just being able to briefly bend the flame of a candle and, with practice; I was able to put out large fires. Now you could imagine that a teenage would have so much fun with this. I felt like a superhero.
By this time I was skilled in the use of my other gifts and I would use them frequently. I never made a decision without using my ability to decide what the right choice was. I thought there was nothing in the world that could upset me or bother me. I was wrong.
One day, after I had helped a woman cross over, I felt something very large and very angry following me. When I closed my eyes to see what it was all I saw was this black emptiness. In fear I ran as fast as I could back to my house and locked myself in my room. The thing followed me and would frequently torment me in the night.
He longer it stayed near my house, the more that negative spirits would approach me. It was then that I started blocking my abilities. I put up "walls" around myself and blocked out everything. I stopped trying to see the future, stopped reading others, I even avoided fire. If a spirit came near me, even if it wasn't dark a negative, I would raise my walls and pretend I didn't notice them.
After a few months of blocking out everything I found that I didn't have to concentrate nearly as hard to bring up my walls. My body was just used to it. And I was happy with that.
Now I'm no longer afraid of the things that tormented me. I decided to try and use my powers recently and I found that I can't. That scares me more than anything else. Without my abilities I feel completely empty. Everything is blank to me. I have to concentrate to sense anything and even then it feels like I'm stretching out across this massive void.
Is it possible that my gift is almost completely gone? Is this forever? Or are my "walls" just still around me and I just can't tell? I don't know the answer to these questions. I wish there was someone I could talk to but there isn't anyone I know that can help me. My friends know even less about their gifts than I do about mine and none of them have any idea what to say to me. My Mother and Sister use their abilities even less than my friends and know next to nothing about others with the gift.
Even in my own house, surrounded by my family, I feel utterly lost...