I'm a mother of two boys and have been noticing and remembering a lot of things lately and I'm pretty sure things are no longer coincidental (however you spell that) anymore.
I was born in the Philippines. I'm black, native Cherokee Indian, Filipino and Spanish. I say this because I just recently found where and what my roots are, my whole life I never really belonged to anyone or anything.
I have dreams that come true (every once in a while). I have dreams of things that happen to other people and watch it on the news soon after I have the dream, or I remember it later once it happens.
I had a dream where I was standing in the middle of a room, it was a concrete floor, everything was was made of concrete and wood. There were wooden rafters above me. I was watching 2 women with 4 or 5 children running around them, they looked as though they would be related to me but I didn't know them (I have a lot of family I never met though, I thought to myself) they were of dark complexion and the children's ages ranged from 2 - 9 years old. There was an older male or teen up stairs. I couldn't understand their language but the women were trying to gather the children, then suddenly the house is starting to collapse and the man upstairs is yelling to everyone, it was like a balcony upstairs. There was panic and I graphically saw the children falling and crying and getting hurt the 2 women were making their way to the doorway and I can hear them screaming and one managed to grab 1 or 2 of the smaller children, everything turns black and there is little noise mostly silence. And then I wake up, my heart was pounding and I was breathing hard. And then a few weeks later Haiti happens and it all comes back to me.
I was driving home from Seattle with my fiance driving and I was kind of just day dreaming and glancing out the window, when I some how got my attention on a exit sign that read Federal way fife exit. This drive home is about 45 minutes to an hour long depending on the traffic and I couldn't help but keep reading this sign over over again and I was on the free way but when we past it it felt like 5 minutes I stared at it... And I can remember the thoughts and feelings that were growing through me at that point of time...silence, dread, sadness and hopelessness, and then it was gone. I didn't notice it at the time until I got home a few hours later when I finally turned on the tv to the news. The first thing was that an accident occurred where a number of people got hurt and 1 person died where a woman chased another vehicle due to road rage within that hour I passed the exit. It was in that town Milton, fife area. I couldn't believe it. I couldn't help but think I was just over thinking it but it kept playing back to me when I was look at that sign.
I'm sensitive to other peoples feelings, auras, or whatever, I just sense it or should I say just know how they feel, I feel it in my chest sometimes it's hard for me to breath or I get a feeling like your heart just sank real hard, I always thought I was a very emotional personal. When I talk to people its really easy for people to open up to me or I can just read their demeanor and their feelings about me or the subject very easily. I don't try to look for it, it just happens within me. If you know what I mean. Sometimes I can't help it but it affects me physically. I always thought that I have anxiety or something. I always just kept it to myself as these feelings would flood through me through the day.
Sometimes I wake-up out of a dead sleep and will be able to grab my child as he is falling off the bed. Or the phone rings and I know who it is... And as their name comes to my head I feel that heart sinking feeling in my chest at the same time. Like it physically let's me know... It tires me sometimes because its feeling like I'm standing on the edge of a building feeling. That's how I know its not just a lucky guess. I'm constantly second guessing myself. I'm a type of person that's really self conscious of my thoughts and feelings and of other peoples feelings. I'm extremely observant of my surroundings and notice what people are doing or feeling when I'm at a park or mall. I'm extremely optimistic and can't help but find good in people, and takes a lot for me to pull away from negative people because of it. Is it me or is there really something going on with me or are these things a figment of my active imagination. What would you call it if I do have some kind of sense.
Or am I mistaking my personality traits for a 6 sense.lol
How can better these skills or feelings?