So as my title explains, I am an empath and have been my entire life, but I've also had many psychic experiences. They have been small ones like finding a random, unsuspecting parking spot just because I had a strong "gut" feeling about it. I have also heard voices and seen my dead great-grandmother, as well as delivered messages to my parents from my dead family members just because I had a strong feeling that I had to do so. I only mention these because I'm trying to figure out exactly what those experiences mean or if that makes me any type of psychic?
Anyway, the reason I'm writing this story is for help and instruction on what to do about my seemingly inverted empathic abilities. I can manipulate other people's emotions better than I can sense what exactly they are feeling and what is the matter with them (if there is anything wrong). I don't do it on purpose, actually, I feel it to be more of a burden because when I'm around people it's like an open, two-way tunnel that channels both sets of emotions back and forth between us. I strongly feel theirs and mine, and they seem to be highly impacted by me, so much so that their mood completely changes to whatever I'm feeling or whatever I want them to feel. For example, if someone is in a bad mood or has negative energy I automatically sense it, feel it, internalize it, then in an effort to change the negative to positive I have the ability to make them feel an entirely different emotion.
I do like that I am helping people because I always seem to be the go-to person when anyone needs to talk and they rave about my great listening skills and how I made them feel better, but in situations other than those it's difficult to deal with. I feel like I'm burdening others with my own emotions (I'm a very emotional, sometimes moody person) or just invading their personal space in a way. I don't know what to do, I know I can't change the way I am so I need some guidance or advice on how to cope. Thank you so much!