I am a 22 year old female university student. Ever since I was a child, I've always been simultaneously attracted to and frightened by the supernatural world. I have gently dabbled in Wicca once or twice in my life, but for one reason or other I've always pulled away; quite possibly out of fear. I feel a very strong pull towards nature, particularly in the fall on windy, cloudy days; there's just an undeniable electricity in the air for me. I think I may have some strengths when it comes to summoning the wind, but I hear that this can cause catastrophic effects around the world so I try not to test it out too often.
I'm also *very* attached to animals and I love them more than humans. I feel deeply connected to them and they love me, too. In fact there's a beautiful, young black cat who walks around my neighborhood and has become friends with me. He's anything but shy, freely rubbing up against my legs and running over to me if I call him. When I don't see him for long stretches of time, I worry for him.
I also have many characteristics of an empath or 'highly sensitive person' and this has been a huge struggle for me, as I feel the pain of others as if they were my own, even if it's on a TV show (the season finale of Grey's Anatomy *absolutely* traumatized me for days because I felt that it was happening to me). I have also struggled with depression in the past and am currently recovering from an eating disorder.
Probably most terrifying of all is that I have had dreams of people that I don't know of dying, and within days or weeks it happens. For example, when I was about 14 years old I dreamt that an elderly man had passed away. In the dream when the news was delivered, a young man (one of the managers of my parents' work place) was upset and people were standing around in a certain part of the work building. A couple weeks later, standing in the exact same place, I found out that the manager's father had passed away. Also a further note on dreams - mine tend to be *very* vivid and in many cases I am conscious in them and can recognize that I am dreaming.
I've tried certain psychic tests, and the results have always been frustratingly comical. I find myself second guessing what number or image matches the hidden card, it always comes down to two, and I *always* choose the wrong one. When it gives me the correct answer, 9/10 times it's the other one I didn't pick.
I don't know if I'm a witch, a star child, an inexperienced psychic, or some other supernatural being that I've never heard of, or a combination of more than one of the above. I just know that I don't fit in with "normal" (I put that word in quotations because really, who decides what normalcy is?) people. I have been wanting to consult a psychic for help and advice, however it's been difficult for me to locate one that isn't a fraud. I was wondering if anyone could possibly help me identify myself and figure out what I might be and what I should do to better know myself?
I appreciate anyone taking the time to read and respond to this, thank you so much.