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Haunting Memories and my Lost Psychic Gift


I was haunted from about 14yrs old until 22yrs old. Spirits were mostly kind, they came to me as clear as day, sometimes see-through, sometimes in a fog, sometimes couldn't see them, just felt them. I also saw lots of orbs, I heard them, I felt them, they gave me messages, told me things but not with a voice, more like psychic messages, usually warnings. I learned things I didn't want to know, it became very intense, many strange unexplained events, other people around me also experienced some of these things and saw spirits. I felt intruded, didn't know who to turn to, became very angry, I was a very introvert, quiet, highly religious christian, but eventually I freaked out with the constant daily events of the undead all around me.

I yelled that I didn't want to see them, I didn't care about what they wanted, didn't want to know the future, I pushed god away and refused to look at them or listen, I turned to alcohol. After about two years passed of me ignoring them, they finally all went away. I then stopped drinking and tried to have a normal life, but I feel very lonely and scared I made a mistake, I didn't want to be haunted and don't want to be, just wish I had someone to explain to me why what and if I'm forgiven, if I am still loved, I don't know how to bring God back into my life, I believe in him, but now, in the sense of God being a higher power that exists and is all around us and part of us as much as we are part of it.

I just don't pray anymore, and I'm crying now, because I think I am scared, that's why I am alone, I don't blame myself about how I reacted, try being haunted and alone. I am 32 now, can't get over it still, it still haunts me in memories and fear of mistake. Much of my experiences were loving spirits trying to help, curious spirits just checking things out and only two that were a little scary but not sure if that was their intention.

I would feel better if I could meet someone that legitimately knows about these things and can confirm that I am ok. Can anyone help?

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Timfaraos (426 posts)
7 years ago (2015-03-23)
To ghost whisperer. You say spirits can only make the world a better place. Well there's God's good spirits- angels and saints, and there's satan's evil spirits- his demons. Not ALL spirits want to help us! Just because a chicken has two legs, and a human has two legs, doesn't mean a chicken is a human LOL! Example: Hitler was surrounded by powerful psychic mediums, spiritualists and occultists, who channeled and comunicated with their "spirit guides", to guide Hitler on how to win the war... Well, look at what happened to poor old Hitler, and all of Europe! How come his spirit guides didn't predict that his army would be defeated, if he attacked Russia, during the unbearably cold Russian winter? Think about it. If you want more advice on spirit guides, hear it from the horse's mouth... From a man who had many powerful spirit guides who loved him, and helped him alot, for decades... But then, something happened that changed all that! His book: "SPIRIT OF THE RAINFOREST", by Mark Andrew Ritchie. At Good luck! Stay safe!
Timfaraos (426 posts)
7 years ago (2015-02-22)
You did the right thing! GOD sais: it is forbidden to comunicate with/channel spirits, tell the future, or cast spells. These spirits will defile you, soul and body! If a spirit comes to you, don't talk to it! You don't know what it is under its disguise! Just say: ' In the name of Jesus christ, go away! And God bless you!' That's it! There was a monk sitting in his cell once, and he saw a beautiful angel in his room! The angel said:'GOD sent me to tell you that you are very holy in His eyes!' The monk signed a cross over his body, and said: 'my lord Jesus christ, who am I to see a holy angel?!'... And the angel squealed like a pig, and disappeared, leaving a stench of rotten eggs! So you see, we DON'T KNOW WHAT THESE SPIRITS REALLY ARE, and once we talk to them and trust them, we'll be opening a door to them, that we won't be able to easily close! The only spirits God let's us talk to, are Jesus, the holy Virgin Mary, angels and saints. And only through prayer and fasting. Beware! Because satan can appear as an angel of light! BETTER SAFE THAN SORRY!
myone (2 posts)
14 years ago (2008-07-21)
monarch1975 God loves you. His spirit wants a relationship with you just as much as you want one with him. Pray and ask him back into your life and he will feel that loneliness and void once more. That's what great about him. He has unconditional love for us and he understands our human frailities as well.
lrkmedium101 (7 stories) (105 posts)
14 years ago (2008-07-07)
my advice is to start praying again. I'm pyschic too but I found out that I was a medium not to long ago. Just pray and trust in god. And if you want your gift back meditate.
not sure (guest)
15 years ago (2008-01-23)
I have always had a crazy imagination sense I was a little boy. Over the years I learn to write to clear my mind and help me sleep, though I have always felt like I was meant for something. I have always been one of those people who have all the luck, at times it almost seamed I could see my own future and that is why I was so luckily in life, I can't seam to lose. That said, I have always Imagined feeling things, like not being alone, also crazy dreams, some that come true, or feel like messages. I am not open to this and it scares me. When I am a lone I feel things, and hear sounds. I am too afraid to look for it, if something is there. I don't watch the news or read the paper in fear for I will have nightmares about the news stories. All this a side I manage to live a normal life and I am not sure if this is all in my mind or real. My feelings can scare me.
Ghost_Whisperer (guest)
15 years ago (2007-10-18)
The spirits were either trying to help you with come out of your body, but you didn't like having little control over it, or they were forcing you out so one of them could take over your body. If that ever happens again and you don't want to leave your body, tell them you're not ready. If they insist you come out they obviously don't have your best interests at heart, but we can still stop that. I know it can be scary, but try to think positively. I know- easier said than done... But spirits feed off of the negative energies you send out.

And when you have an OBE without anyone else controlling it, it's not scary at all. Just remember that it's your body, choice, and ability so YOU are in control. Don't let anyone force you to do something you don't want to. Just by thinking about getting back into your body hard enough will get you there. But you may find it opens a lot of opportunites (such as the Akashic Reccords) and you may actually enjoy it when you can do it on your own.
sad (guest)
15 years ago (2007-10-18)
The only thing with my out-of-body experience, is that I had no control of it, it was forced on me. Three other entities were involved, I refused to look at them, so I don't know anything about them. They told me to look at them, that was the only thing I felt I had control over as well. I did not, because I was afraid I would become scared of what I saw. Instead I focused on my body straightening out, which slammed me back into it. It was not an enjoyable experience. This helped send me over the edge, I was scared of what happened and angry. It did feel like one of the beings moved into my body and was curling it up. Can you explain this? Was I too open? I did have so many orbs flying around me at night I hid under my covers to escape them. This is something I really need an explanation for. Can anyone help? Ghost whisperer?
kristy39 (3 stories) (34 posts)
15 years ago (2007-10-18)
i do know someone who said they had a out-of-body experience. I hope some day that I can do it myself it sounds very kool.
Ghost_Whisperer (guest)
15 years ago (2007-10-18)
I'm not angry with you- I just wanted to explain that spirits mean you no harm. Sorry if it came out the wrong way. And to purify your spirit the first thing you have to do is forgive yourself- everyone makes mistakes. Also yes, I've had out of body experiences.
sad (guest)
15 years ago (2007-10-18)
Thank you so very much for responding everyone. I cried because it is the first time I have have spoken to anyone about this. Now I am happy, because I know now that I can reach out and people like you are out there to talk to.

I am listening to you all equally, I appreciate the comforting reassurance, as well as the anger fom ghost whisperer about my choices. I am very upset with myself as well, this is why I am still crying after all these years. I did apologize and I promise I am going to work on purifying myself from sin and the fog of ignorance. I know there are no excuses for my actions, we are all responsible for ourselves. Thank you for caring and responding.

I would really appreciate speaking with any of you again about this. To help understand experiences.

If I may ask, has anyone had an out-of-body experience? Have you experienced it and were there other entities around? This is very important to me. Please give me any insight to this.

Thank you all again soo very much and please don't stop sharing.
Katie (guest)
15 years ago (2007-10-18)
Hi I go through that now I see spirits and ghosts by the way orbs are spirits. I do get upset now and then cause it really does scare me and freaks me out so I understand how you felt then cause I am still going through it all. I have had messages in my mind of warnings even dreams which have come true. I have seen ghosts and spirits. I just see other things I'm not suppose to see. The thing is I guess I just have a gift. I don't know what do do I have told me boyfriend I don't like going through these kind of things so he has told me to ignore it. I do feel emotional because I do feel sorry for the spirits and ghosts. I guess I have a gift at the beginning ever since I was 2 years old there was something about me which I didn't know. My dreams ever since I was a baby told me everything they were the thing I was relying on the one thing I ever trust. My gift has improved loads in this year. At the beginning of this year when I started going out with my boyfriend at the beginning of this year it started to all come to me. I saw a ghost for the very first time at my boyfriend house. Then they started to all come to me at my house. I couldn't cope at it first but I guess it just al right now. What really scares me they come unexpectedly. They don't hurt us they help us. We are very lucky people to have different kind of gifts. Just say sorry and mean it and maybe you be lucky to have a gift which you had before. A gift just like mine which you have. Hopefully they haven't given it someone else. What you wrote was all the kind of stuff I see and go through.
kristy39 (3 stories) (34 posts)
15 years ago (2007-10-18)
i am with Ghost_Whisperer I would lisen to her. The spirit come to us to tell us things they are not here to hurt us in any way. And yea god loves you very much he has not turned his back on you. He is always with you. Thanks for telling this I hope you get what you are looking for. Open up to them ask them to please come back let them know you need them and you miss them. Talk to them let them know you are there for them. You will get your gift back if you are realy sure that you want it back. Things will be ok.
FireFly (4 stories) (35 posts)
15 years ago (2007-10-18)
I can understand why you pushed them away, I went through something similar. It seems to me that you just had a bit of a spirit overload and became overwhelmed. But if you are feeling regret, I would suggest trying to let them back in and opening yourself up again, except slowly so that you can adjust. Thats what I am currently doing. Trying to redevelope my psychic abilities and open up to the spirit world I mean. I hope that helps you or gives you some answers. 😉
Ghost_Whisperer (guest)
15 years ago (2007-10-17)
You really shouldn't have pushed the spirits away. They were just trying to help, and ignoring problems won't solve them. At least if you knew what would happen in the future you would have a better chance of dealing with the challenges, but pretending they don't exist won't prevent them. You shouldn't have gotten mad at the spirits for trying to nudge you in the right direction- consider yourself lucky for the gift. The Chinese symbol for 'crisis' is also the symbol for 'opportunity' for a reason.

But of course God forgives you. You're his child and he'll always love and accept you no matter what you do (he told me so). Everyone makes mistakes. But I really can't believe you wouldn't want to be psychic. If people had paid attention to psychic warnings, Atlantis would never have been destroyed, the Titanic wouldn't have sunk, President Lincoln wouldn't have died... You name it. Spirits can only make the world a better place- why fear them? Is it really being haunted that scares you- or the future? Like I said, ignoring problems doesn't solve them. Listening to your intuition, being brave, and striving to make the world a better place does wonders.

I understand it can be stressful- I'm a psychic medium, too. But God never gives you anything you can't handle and you really have nothing to fear but the fear itself. There are far worse things than getting psychic warnings. It's not about what happens to you- it's how you react to it. I'm thirteen and have been haunted my entire life (as well as lives at least since Atlantis) but I'm not letting it get me down and I suggest you do the same.

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