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A Spiritual Blessing Turned Curse

 

My strongest psychic medium experiences began in August 2010, but what's happened since has made me contemplate all the other times I sensed I was communicating with something on a spiritual level. I need to understand what I'm experiencing. Am I am empath, or are my spirit and thoughts so unprotected that certain beings can easily tap into them?

For a long time, I'd been thinking of a man I had a crush on and who I thought was interested in me also. I had a longing for him. An experience I had in June 2008 made me realize that somehow, I was able to connect with live people - hearing their thoughts and feelings - and some of them could reciprocate. I was on an airplane and saw a captivating man coming down the isle. I felt a strong sexual urge toward him and couldn't control it. It so happens he was assigned the seat next to me. As our forearms touched on the armrest, I felt us "doing it." I know it sounds insane, but it was real and intense. He acknowledged he could hear my thoughts, and I was able to feel him. It's like the Magical Realism in "Like Water for Chocolate."

I wondered who else I could communicate with in this way. So in August 2010 I decided to concentrate my thoughts on my crush. I was lying on my side in bed one night when I felt a sensation as if someone were snuggling up to my back. I knew it was him. And it was wonderful but scary at the same time to feel this "spirit" controlling me. I panicked and began praying to God and my deceased Grandma to protect me. Soon after, I was in contact with so many of my deceased family. They began communicating by writing messages with my finger. And when each one communicates, I feel their different personalities, even those who died before I knew them. I could feel them leading me to parts of the house. I sensed their energy as I looked at their photos. So many things happened that I know I wasn't controlling. One time I was taking my plate of food to eat in my room, but a spirit physically directed me to sit at the table instead. It was a 6-chair table. And then one by one, I got messages written to me about who I was sitting with. One was from my grandpa on my father's side. We'd never met. And I burst into tears... I was just overcome by what was happening.

Even though it was family and my crush, I was frustrated by what was happening. It's like I constantly sensed them around me and felt I had no control over the situation. So I lashed out. I said mean things. In turn, they became mean to me. Now they randomly flick me off and write "nuts" with my finger. My crush draws smiley faces and hearts and then flicks me off. The worst part is I've lost sense of which thoughts are mine and which are theirs. Most times I can't even tell who is acting out. And the sensations became so scary one night - they said I was going to the devil, and I burst into tears and tremors that weren't my own - that I had to tell my parents. Now they think I'm hallucinating. They don't think it's possible for spirits to have this much power, or that God wouldn't forgive whatever I said. So I am on antipsychotics. I still get the writing and sensations when I think of them, though... And sometimes without thinking of them. I told my parents I wasn't getting anymore messages because I am afraid they will put me on higher meds when I know I'm not psychotic; I just offended some powerful spirits and a medium. I can't confront my crush for fear that 1) he won't acknowledge what is happening and I will be deemed even more insane 2) it will ruin our families' relationship 3) it can ruin any future we may have together. I feel like he may still care about me but is punishing me for how I treated his and my family. Why would he still come to me if he didn't care? Can a grudge be that bad?

Just sharing my story is a relief. It's so hard to be unable to speak with anyone for fear of being called insane. But in the past when I've concentrated on a dead or alive person, I have felt their energy. It has happened on several occasions... But all of a sudden in 2008, that was the strongest psychic connection I had, and ever since 2010, it is out of my control. At this point, it's a blessing turned curse and I just want to stop it or make it better and convince my family I'm not insane. This has affected my faith. I feel like I'm being punished by God for how I treated my family. Even if it ends, I don't know where to go from here. I don't know what to make of this situation - if it's good or bad or fixable. It's mainly sensations; bouts of laughter, moving my fingers... Feeling something pushed up against me. There have been voices on a couple occasions but not much.

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The following comments are submitted by users of this site and are not official positions by psychic-experiences.com. Please read our guidelines and the previous posts before posting. The author, nebulous123, has the following expectation about your feedback: I will participate in the discussion and I need help with what I have experienced.

nebulous123 (1 stories) (10 posts)
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9 years ago (2011-01-24)
I thank everyone for their words and advice. Today after praying and meditation, I feel a calm and peace, as if I have come to terms with my "demons." There is a lot I still don't understand about what I experienced... But as long as I can find peace, that's what matters. ❤
nebulous123 (1 stories) (10 posts)
 
9 years ago (2011-01-24)
Well I didn't hear your voice, but I did feel your fire... Thanks.
AnandaHya (guest)
 
9 years ago (2011-01-23)
lol Joe you're great for a good laugh. I can see it works for you. 😆 😆 😆
Joe631 (2 stories) (89 posts)
 
9 years ago (2011-01-23)
NS can try and touch your empthic side through his PC screen but I'm going to give you words that if read the right way will get your inner energy FIRED up. Hell you should all just hear my voice its down right scuurry if you ask me hahaha
Joe631 (2 stories) (89 posts)
 
9 years ago (2011-01-23)
Ok ill give this a shot since I really do feel bad that I can't seem to find the right words to help you with this so this isn't psychic joe that's going to talk this is street joe...

1. Lifes to short to worry about the dead and their problems. For Gods sake WE ARENT DEAD YET so why do they have to bother us? THEY KNOW MORE THEN WE DO AT THEIR POINT NO?! Yeah that's what I thought. So my advice is next time your crush flicks you off give him two fingers back yeah feel me? And your "family members that are mean now" are you serious? The devil they tell you that your going to meet? Id think twice about if these entities are in fact your actual dead relatives or simply entities masking themselves as such to torement you.

2. Dont ever be afraid. Fear is the most primal instinct of any animale man or beast. Our energy is so high in times of fear that the spirit realms can feed off it if you will. The Shadow People purposley drain individuals for their own purposes and so forth. NO FEAR NO PROBLEMS it works for me and if you got enough wabos it can work for you too.

3. Like I tell everyone here, YOUR NOT CRAZY and if we ARE CRAZY then f#$k everyone that's normal;)
nebulous123 (1 stories) (10 posts)
 
9 years ago (2011-01-19)
To Ananda and AngelObr, thank you.

NaturalScience, I will try to play win-win. At the time of your attempted blessing, I was just waking up from a nap. I cannot remember if I felt anything special. I'd been asleep for a while and that was the time I was ready to wake up. Thank you for your positive energy.
NaturalScience (229 posts)
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9 years ago (2011-01-19)
Now it is 21. 12 PM in Germany. I just did a very simple thing. I put my finger upon the PC screen where your nick was, and said, now, Empath, feel ME, and God bless you so that you can fight off all trials to deem you mad.

Did you feel anything special at this very minute - translate it to your time-zone -?
If yes there Is such a thing as Telepathy. It was a kind of experiment to me. If no it proves nothing either as to you or to the existence of above-named phenomenon.

Be sure to pray for your relatives' souls every day. For if it is really them who ridicule you by writing "nuts" with your finger and so on, they can't be in Heaven or Purgatory yet. Then they need your help to go to the Beyond and I don't know what help can you give to them except praying.

But if it is not them but some demons taking advantage of you, your relatives in the Beyond are called up to pray for you when they hear you call to the Lord for them. Thus runs business in Heaven!

To sum up: Play "Win-Win" with the Lost Souls, then your sanity will return.
AngelObr (4 stories) (41 posts)
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9 years ago (2011-01-19)
Don't think that you are insane, you are not. You should read all of the other posts on this website, so many people (including myself) have stories posted of them thinking they were crazy because that's how people make them feel. People who don't have these abilities don't understand it unless they have an open mind because they have never experienced it before. Having something like that is wonderful and I am not sure what you said to them to make them mad but you need to stand up and be strong. Tell them that you cannot help them until you can figure things out for yourself first. That is the most important thing. Also, God is not punishing you and you shouldn't loose your faith. Stay strong and not to sound all religious but God will help you through it all so talk to him and to the spirits that always made you feel happy and comfortable. Keep your head up and always look at the positive. 😁
AnandaHya (guest)
 
9 years ago (2011-01-19)
Nebulous, people are busy. Don't take it personally. Work on the those sheilds and try to get a tougher skin that peoples words and actions don't take away your happiness and joy.

Take control of your life and go make a positive change in yourself and the world.

Everyone will comment when they get the chance.
nebulous123 (1 stories) (10 posts)
 
9 years ago (2011-01-19)
I wonder if my story is too long and that's why it's received only 1 comment. I hope to hear from more people soon, especially the gifted ones:)
nebulous123 (1 stories) (10 posts)
+1
9 years ago (2011-01-19)
Thank you Ananda for your comment. All I have heard about karma is the cliche "what comes around goes around." I am glad you think I have innate good karma, but I do feel guilty lately for getting angry at the spirits and not controlling my words. I do easily trust people because I want to believe they are powerful and caring enough to help me and know what's best.

As far as personal shields, I feel I've let them down and don't know how or if I should put them up. I feel like a broken sliding door that's just exposed to everyone else's wills. But I will try to believe that I can independently control this situation and put my shields back up.
AnandaHya (guest)
+1
9 years ago (2011-01-19)
Have you ever heard of the term Karmic debt? Some of the trials we have to endure is in order to burn off our karmic debt. We have some control of our lives by the way we react to the situation we are placed in. It is key that we respect ALL beings, no matter what they say or do to us. Spirits can be mean or helpful depending on their goal. Be careful who you allow into your personal shields. You have innate good karma to be able to have supernatural ablities to communicate with the spirit world. However you are too trusting, do not confuse respect and love with trust. Learn to protect yourself, do not do it out of anger but out of the understanding that you are preventing them from accumulating bad karma by hurting and scary you.

You will gain more respect from your crush if you stand up for yourself and show him your strength and independence. Most guys don't really like clingy girlfriends that are really needy and demanding attention all the time.

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