A couple of years ago I started to get precognitive dreams and psychic flashes. During this time a lot of information was given to me.
I dreamt of events that came true. I dreamt of peoples deaths which also sadly came true.
But during this time I also started having these precognitive dreams of my own death.
I never really quite understood them at the time. They took place in the future and the specific place it happened at wasn't a place I was really sure I'd be going anytime soon.
I've had more than five dreams of my own death, all occurring at the same place and direction I'm going at that specific time. And they are all plane crash deaths.
In my precognitive dreams I'm flying to the States and while on the plane something goes wrong. Horribly wrong. The plane crashes somewhere in the ocean and I die along with the other people on board. I can still remember the colour of the ocean, I remember what I see before I die.
I feel the panic, the fear and the sadness. Yet somehow a part of me is at peace.
And every one of these precognitive dreams have awoken me from deep slumber at night. When I awake, I'm filled with dread and fear. I wake up screaming out of breath in cold sweat.
At the time I never understood what these dreams meant. At first I thought I was seeing other peoples last moments before they crashed. I used to check the news for anything related to plane crashes occurring at that time or even crashes that had happened earlier. But I never found anything. As the years went by and I grew older these dreams rested in the backseat of my mind. Though I did not pay much attention to them they were always somehow lingering around in my head. As if a remembrance of some sort.
It wasn't until this week they came back to me. I'm planning on going to college this fall, in the States nonetheless. And As I was talking to my mother about Tennessee (where I plan on going) something happened. I had a psychic flashback of all those plane crash dreams. It was as if someone yelled inside my head, to not forget this. At that moment my heart jumped and skipped beats (not the good kind). This dread shifted through my spine and whole body, my eyes even started to water a little bit.
A psychic flash has never done this to me before.
At that moment it was like someone told me you're going to die on that plane. I felt the cold go through my body, and I saw it before my eyes as if a movie clip. And I just sat there quiet for a while. I felt numb.
Look I'm not one to speculate on things such as death because I know how hazy death premonitions can be. I know that they sometimes represent other things than death.
But this... I've never felt anything like this.
I then started to remember more things.
Looking past the whole 2012 thing and the spiritual new era taking a hold in near future.
I am from time to time left with a feeling, a knowledge that something is coming for me. Some days it is like it's hovering in the air before me. I can be out walking and I'll stop and feel it. Something that feels like death. It is almost as if I can taste it.
I'll wake up sometimes and I feel like I'm being pulled down, like something is grabbing a hold of me. Like something is leaving it's mark upon me, and let's me know that it is going to come back for me when the time is right.
Some days it feel like I need to run like hell, like something is coming for me and I need to run. But it won't matter how fast I will run. Because whatever "it" is. It's not something you can run from. If it wants you it has you.
And FYI I am not depressed or anything like that at all. I am as happy as clam =).
Seeing the flashback of these premonitions it was like my guides/protectors warned me to be extremely careful. During that flashback, watching and feeling what happens all I knew and thought in my head was: Oh my God I'm going to die!
And not in the way that I'm freaked, it was in the way that I had a pure knowledge if you will.
I mean I'm not the only one who reacted on this. I told my mother and even she couldn't say exactly what she was thinking about this. Though she already knew what her initial thought was. As an empath I can read her so easily. She thought like I did, that this might be true.
If this indeed is the truth, it would explain everything that has been happening to me these past two years and why. As a psychic I walk in-between worlds, yet belong to neither. And these past two years it feels like I'm slipping away and that something's going to swallow me whole.
I would really appreciate your help with this guys, it's driving me mad.
Please give me your insight on this, give me anything. I will be forever grateful.
Blessings & Light