The first experience happened one night when I was laying in bed awake with my eyes closed. After a while of contemplation I see a door, I open my eyes. I close my eyes again, my eyes and upper cheeks start twitching and while this is happening it appears that I am moving through space constantly forward never stopping. At one point I see faint objects like planets, hands and at one point monsters to which seems so real that I open my eyes and say, wow.
As time went on (weeks-months) I tried to replicated this experienced then one night I managed to arrive into this state of mind. This time I tried to picture a woman I really liked (just the face). Harder and harder trying to put her face together in my mind, at one point I start to move through a portal with blue irregular squares, then involuntarily but able to control like breathing my chin sticks up exposing my neck, my chest sticks out, my muscles in my arms and torso tighten, I unintentionally become aroused, I then feel an overwhelming feeling, like anxiety and the feeling that something is going to be ripped out of me in the chest area. At this point I get such a feeling that it really felt that I had made a connection with this woman, and as this is happening I get a strong urge to say something and I did. I got so overwhelmed that I had to stop.
I would really appreciate it if someone with experience can tell me what this all means.