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I Am An Empath, Cursed With A Gift

 

This is so strange to me. I never knew that what I can do has a name. Ever since I can remember, I've picked up on other people's emotions. It would influence my emotions to the point where I'd have such crazy mood swings I was hospitalized. Several times, in fact. My psychiatrists have never really settled on a diagnoses for me in the mental health world. The most recent one they came up with was Borderline Personality Disorder, which is characterized by extreme emotional reactions.

I finally got off my lazy butt and did some research after my mother made a comment to me the other day. She asked me to do one of my "readings" on a colleague of hers that she didn't understand. This coworker had turned on my mom and had become very defensive and territorial for what my mom thought was no good reason. I made a prediction in to what he was feeling, having never even met this guy before, and I was right.

I've been doing that all my life for my mom in her business situations, and have even managed to accurately describe people I have never seen before based on their emails to my mother. I've managed to accept it, but there was something in my mother's phrasing that made me want to google my "emotional readings". I almost cried when I found out I wasn't the freak I had thought myself to be.

There was always something in the back of my mind that hinted I had some sixth sense, and one of my many therapists mentioned psychic abilities many years ago, but I never but much faith in those feelings. I am a believer now.

The overwhelming sense of emotions I get have caused me to have severe anxiety, to the point where I've developed OCD and was practically never leaving the house. I would break down every time I entered a crowded room. And ever since I was little I would avoid social situations, choosing instead to lock myself up in my room with my books.

Now, I've started to get a handle on it, though because of my anxiety, I qualified for a psychiatric service dog, and can almost communicate with her. With my dog, I can now go to the mall without being worried about a breakdown. We almost do have conversations, though I realize that probably sounds crazy. With her help, and the mind exercises I've started doing, I have now begun dating for the first time in my life.

I don't really know why I'm posting this on the internet for everyone to see, but I need to know that I'm not alone, and that I'm not the mental patient my friends, family, and doctors have believed me to be for the past several years. It's a relief to know that I am not the only person who can tune in to another person/animal's thoughts and feelings.

If you could just give me any advice on how other empaths have dealt with it, or just stories of your own journeys, I would be very grateful.

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adrianm80 (25 posts)
 
10 years ago (2011-09-18)
bookpirate your lucky your parents know. I'm to scared to tell my parents. 😢
adrianm80 (25 posts)
 
10 years ago (2011-09-18)
physic4life my ability's are very different to yours. I'm a physic dreamer but somehow I can also speak to the dead. I can't control my abilities. I mean I can speak to dead anytime. It the dreaming I can't control. Sometimes it happens when I'm awake only sometimes though. Is there anyway I can control it?
Psychic4Life (4 stories) (13 posts)
 
10 years ago (2011-09-18)
BookPirate213, It's such a relief to know I'm not the only one whose mother asks them to give readings on co-workers, clients, bosses, etc. I am an Empath too, and in the past I had struggled with it; it made me a freak to everyone, and I felt like an outcast... Up until I figured out how to get a hold of my gift and seize it before it could control me. I believe that half the battle is just coming to terms with it, accepting it for what it is within you, as you; God gave you this gift for a reason: He intended for you to live and experience a great journey with your gift. Once I had began to understand it and control it to some extent, I noticed that I was able to do "me" more feasibly. To this day, I continue to do readings for my mom and others of whom I trust, the only difference being that I'm doin' "me" when I do anything and everything in my life.
stephyw2001 (3 stories) (108 posts)
 
10 years ago (2011-08-15)
Oh and Wildrose, I tend to agree with you to an extent. All my life I've been told I'm "empathetic". To me, this was not a psychic thing either. I felt it more more a psychology thing. Some people are sympathetic, while other more sensitive or emotional people take it a step further into being empatethic, where we actually can feel the pain of others, both physically and/or emotionally. I don't think this is psychic, if the other's troubles are either very evident or have been told to the empathetic person.

However, I do think it can cross into the psychic realm. This is when the "empath" can immediately tap into someone's pain or feelings when they are not present, or have not shown any outward signs of troubles. This intuition is where the psychic tends to take effect, because being psychic is really all about having a higher intuition is it not?
stephyw2001 (3 stories) (108 posts)
 
10 years ago (2011-08-15)
Yeah Bookpirate, I understand about feeling worse for animals than people. I honestly feel worse for animals when I know they suffered or were in pain than I do for most people. This sounds heartless I'm sure, but I think it has something to do with the innocence of animals vs people. Of course, when the horrible tragedy happens to an honestly good person, I feel equally as bad. I don't feel their pain, but I generally get depressed. I only feel the physical pain or soreness when people are actually telling me about something, or showing me pictures and explaining their surgery or ordeal. Not sure why this is, but it is what it is. 😜
WildRoseFlow_r (15 posts)
 
10 years ago (2011-08-13)
"Tapping" into others' emotions and deducing their next move is not necessarily a psychic element, it means that you are smart... And many people are smart and have the ability to feel others they just choose not to. This is because knowing the truth of how so many people feel can be claustrophobic and dangerous if one becomes too sensitive. And this can be evident as people are still warring because they will not express their emotions and thoughts on the very smallest level about anything that concerns them or crosses their minds. This is a world of government and policy, not of spirit and people.

There are different lenses to see this phenomena of sensitivity through. And one can pick according to his tastes or what will be easiest. Their is the spiritual route, the psychic route, the logical route, artistry, lawfullness, etc. I think you have picked the psychic/spiritual route. As one is psychic one can learn intimitaly about spiritual values found. And this will help in ethics of one's viewpoint.
CanYouHearMyHeartCallingOut (1 stories) (5 posts)
 
10 years ago (2011-08-12)
I have that too- I remember once, my mum was working with a lady (cutting out details here.) but anyway, she was rather emotional but I could really feel it. It was awful, I ended up walking out before I was about to cry...
I don't go out much... > >;; Because of that very reason. But sometimes I don't get anything from people which is good.

P.S. You're not alone. ^__^
BookPirate213 (1 stories) (1 posts)
 
10 years ago (2011-08-12)
Thank you all for the support. Since my realization, I have started getting better at separating my emotions from others! And working on my "shield" has been easier than I thought... I'm just so glad it's starting to improve...

Lilangelcakes and stephyw, I, too, get sick at things like that. But, stephyw, about the animal thing, I cannot watch anything that involves animal cruelty, and whenever someone I know gets sick, I always end up getting sick, too. I have managed to almost completely block out the sick feeling I get with crime stories surrounding humans, however. Shows like Cold Case Files and CSI hardly bother me anymore... But I've worked hard at deadening that sense. I am quite a mystery fan, and I wanted to watch those shows, so I somehow put down a mental block. I cannot do that with the pain I feel with animals, though. Having several cats and dogs makes it worse, too, I think. But, on the plus side, all this has also helped me have a high tolerance for pain:)

Bbydll, thank you so much for the suggestion. I am a HUGE fan of all things herbal, and will definitely try the Wort out. It just so happens there is a Walmart down the street! And always remember, you aren't alone. I am just now realizing this.

I thank you all very, very much. I don't feel so alone anymore. ❤
bbydll3 (1 posts)
 
10 years ago (2011-08-12)
I am right with you Book Pirate! It has been a curse more so than a gift until recently I stumbled into the meaning of Empath. I have a roommate and I am ALWAYS reading his feelings. I would rather be alone most of the time because that's when I feel at ease. Around people I just get overwhelmed. The one place it somewhat works for me is at work. I am a corrections officer. I can always sense if there is tension in the unit or if an inmate is lying I KNOW. I never even realized anything was different about me until I read the articles. I am still coming to terms with it but it is nice to know I am not crazy. One suggestion I will make. I am an herbalist and believe firmly in herbs. I take St. Johns Wort every day and have for years. (Not knowing of course that it was helping) I needed something but didn't want to take chemical drugs. This has seemed to help control the feelings a little. I know it sounds strange but it help the feelings subside a bit so I can be in crowds. (I know this because when I didn't take it for a week once I about went nuts with all the emotions) Hope this helps:) PS! St. Johns Wort is all natural and you can buy it at Walmart. 😊
lilangelcakes887 (1 stories) (12 posts)
 
10 years ago (2011-08-12)
Stephy,
Yes, I would get sick to my stomach when I would come into the presence of negetive energy or as some would call, evil. I recently was involved in a course for work and a photo was shown of this woman. I felt a strong disgust come across the room and I began feeling sick to my stomach and "knew" what caused her death, knew that the photo was an autopsy photo, and felt what she felt before she died. This was all before the speaker revealed that the woman was dead in the photo and the information thus after. Generally when I'm around someone who is ill, I will feel the symptoms, etc. I have had this all my life which has made me more tolerant to pain, so I also have a high tolerance to pain.
stephyw2001 (3 stories) (108 posts)
 
10 years ago (2011-08-11)
lilangelcakes - I kind of have a similar situation to yours. Though I don't get physically sick (I'm assuming you mean stomach sick) I can feel pain.

All someone has to do is talk about a surgery or getting hurt somehow. Even if they're tough and are like "it doesn't hurt, really!" I will get pains. Usually I feel it in my wrists, ankles and knees. Its strange, sometimes it can have nothing to do with where the person is getting hurt, or having surgery.

Example, my boss was telling me just on Tuesday about how he needs knee surgery. He was specifying what kind of surgery he was getting, and my wrists started aching. Wrist - knees, not the same.

However, if my brother and sister who need foot surgery talk about their need for surgery again, my ankles and wrists will ache. At least the ankles are closer!

I think its because I have developing arthritis (already even though I'm only going on 28 this September, its a bummer). I think the affected areas with arthritis are the easiest areas to get affected, my wrists being the worst.

And the funny thing is, I'm not squeemish. I LOVED taking human anatomy. I can look at blood and gore and dead bodies without feeling bad at all. But when I see an animal hit on the road, for example, I know the thing went through pain, and I hurt and get depressed. If I hear someone will have surgery, I know they will hurt, even if they won't admit it. Its the thought of others in pain that triggers it, not the procedure itself.

Maybe this is all why I personally have a high pain tolerance! I feel other's pain all the time! Haha!

lilangelcakes887 (1 stories) (12 posts)
 
10 years ago (2011-08-11)
I understand completely... I also am an empath... That is my strongest gift anyway. I used to get mad and wonder what was wrong with me because I generally was a happy child but when around large crowds, I felt fatigued, overwhelmed, and unsure what I felt. It's like if you put your emotions on overdrive... It made me depressed quite often because didn't get it. I learned later on what it was and learned how to sheild while in larger crowds. It isn't a curse though, it is a gift that can help many. I have a family history of healers and I also have that ability. My "feelings" was what helped me to feel the pain someone else was feeling and where to begin the healing process on them. Yes, it is and can be overwhelming sometimes but as long as you get more comfortable with controling the ability, you will be fine. You are not crazy my dear... All of us, as I can see, has had similarities with wondering our own sanity. I also had a huge anxiety problem around people... Something I've learned recently and I do every night is breathing exercises and what I imagine is that the I exhale the negativity and inhale the positivity and I imagine myself being surrounded by light as I do this. It has helped "clear" myself and may help you. I've been attacked throughout my life by negetive forces which is why I also use this exercise. I am one that can feel a negative presence coming or one that leeches on to someone. It was really bad at one point that I had to leave the place and once I did, I was fine. It made me physically sick though while in it's presence. Do you feel this aspect as well?
pokestitch (12 posts)
 
10 years ago (2011-08-10)
i can understand what your going through. I too am an empath. I was always overcome by the emotions of those around me and was constantly wondering why. The only emotion I could ever identify as mine was anger because I didn't understand why the other people surrounding me could never feel what I felt. When I found out that I was an empath I learned/developed a way to 'block' out unwanted feelings. Sure I still have moments where I get very uncomfortable being in large groups of people. But I center myself and think about a wall being put between me and the emotions of others. This usually worked for me but there were the exceptions in which case I would then think about the emotions floating away like a leaf in a river. This helped me to stay calm and collected and now I can stand up in front of hundreds of people and talk without being overwhelmed. This may help you if you try this method. Just remember that staying calm is not as hard as you may think.
*pokestitch*
stephyw2001 (3 stories) (108 posts)
 
10 years ago (2011-08-10)
Oh Book Pirate, you're not alone. Sometimes I forget that I even am an empath. Its been my life for as long as I've been alive.

My biggest struggles are the mood swings too. So best of luck with your dating! Go get 'em tiger! Just always remember to watch your mood. I tend to get into the same fights with every boyfriend I'm with, and I realized its because of my mood swings. In my case it really IS me, not them. So after realizing this, its become a little easier to avoid sticky situations. (I'll get depressed or upset for NO apparent reason, and I don't know why, which upsets me even more!). They blame hormones, which could be true, but I think its more that I pick up on the stuff that goes on around me, and it affects me way more than it would the average person.

It will be frustrating, but you must always remind yourself when you get upset/depressed or any other unwanted emotion "Hey wait a minute, aren't I an empath? And maybe some of this is just in my head and not that relevent/important?"

Best of luck with your dating and endeavors! This site has been most theraputic for me, I hope you get the same results! ❤
Deathshadow (guest)
 
10 years ago (2011-08-10)
It's nice to know that you're gradually getting over this anxiety and coming to terms with who you are 😁 My friend is an empath too to some degree and she has been suffering depression for years. So to you I'll give the same advice that I told her, which is to stay positive no matter what. Also I think learning to "shield" might help you as well (I noticed people mentioning it on some other posts) Anyways good luck! 😁

~Deathshadow~

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