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Am I Being Controlled By A Psychic Or A Spirit?

 

So my dad committed suicide one year ago and I have been through a hard time since. At the time he left me I could not have been doing better. I had graduated HS been accepted into a University, and was already taking college courses. I was happy, healthy, and had a clear mind, worry free. Well all of this changed when he passed. Out of my family I coped the worst. I didn't want to be around anybody, I didn't want to do anything at all, could care less about eating, I just had to because or else my body would be hungry and that would be more uncomfortable. So I started smoking marijuana which was a poor decision for someone who beforehand had no energy and zest for life but I still did, because I didn't care about anything anymore. So I did this for the whole summer and when time came to go to college, I couldn't. My brain was in no shape to go away to college and I panicked and found myself being hospitalized and they called it a psychotic episode. It was me panicking because I couldn't believe my dad had left me when I was soo exited and ready for college, but he did, and I was upset with myself that I could no longer go to college and I had no idea when I would be ready.

So my attitude freaked out my mom and I got sent away for like a year. This whole year I was on meds, and since the meds I started hearing voices, no hallucinations, just voices.

Then early this summer a place finally took me off of them. This is when the weird stuff started happening. Like other than the normal "doctor I'm hearing voices" stuff I was being spoken to and controlled. Like there was and still is something helping me and hindering me. Like it talks to me and controls me and it's freaky. Like right when I was getting off the meds I was happy because I knew I had to stay sober to have a shot at a happy life again, and this thing takes me over. It talks to me in different voices, it won't tell me if its human or a spirit or whatever it is. Sometimes I'll feel like I have control than it will make fun of me or convince me its helping me and I really want to know is this a person on this earth?

Can anyone control someone's mind to this extent? Or is this one of these spirit things actually? Really want to get to the bottom of this and what's going to happen to me, please feel free to comment, if you believe you know what's going on or if you have experience. And, I do know for a fact I'm not psychotic, or schizo, or any of that because I'm off meds, drugs, I have been evaluated by doctors, I'm in perfect health, its just this thing keeps controlling me. Its nuts. Alright, enough from me, please comment lol.

Example- I'll look at an apple, and not be hungry for the apple, and the voice will like speak to me in like some silent voice but I understand what they say and they'll be like "oh really?" and I'll look at the apple and I'll be hungry for it and want it. Like the craziest stuff.

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xhianway11 (1 stories) (2 posts)
 
4 years ago (2015-08-07)
it also happen to me when I was just a child. It seems like someone or something controlling me. In were I can't even move my feet and hand in my own way it was so creepy. But I didn't encountered such thing that someone is talking to me. 😭 😭
Authentica (5 posts)
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8 years ago (2011-11-18)
I have experieced similar things, but on a lesser scale. For example, a few years ago the 2 worst, most shocking experieces of my life happened, which caused me to enter into a state of shock and depression as you describe going through. I didn't care about anything, felt numb, and blamed myself. I started really noticing what I described as a 'dark presence' following me. It was palpable and felt stronger than me. I went to a lady for an energy reading. Once I felt comfortable and knew she was the real deal (describing things in my energy field I could also see and feel) I asked her why I was having panic attacks and this darkness around me. She asked me to go back to an event where it was strong. I thought about being at uni in class and having a panic attack, but my mind 'froze' is the best way to describe it. Something was inside my head and was trying to 'hijack' my mind! The lady said "Gee it really doesn't want to show itself to me!" I pushed through the resistance, and in that safe meditative space, I could 'see' this pale black 'cloak' subtly stiffling my whole aura! It spoke to the lady in an unidentifiable voice, before saying that it's too much for me to handly at once and it will come to me bit by bit for me to heal... When you Command a being to tell you if it's in alignment with your Highest Self, it must respond truthfully by Law or it may stay silent, in which case it means 'no' therefore do whatever possible to disconect with it. The reason I share this, is I agree with previous responders that your shocked/depressed state + the meds have allowed something 'in.' My advice is to do some meditation and become the 'observer' of your thoughts & feelings. Discern what is 'you' and what is coming from 'it' and then there are many methods, techniques to clear your energy. The most important thing I've found is building up your strength with fresh food, adequate sleep, prayer, meditation, regular cleansings and affirmations. The more you can overcome it's will, the less power it will have. The more you're aware and observe it, the less power it can exert to influence you. Many websites offer do-it-yourself techniques to get it away from you. Search for 'parasitic entity removal techniques' etc. I hope this is helpful to you, remember you are a Spark of Light, which will overcome any darkness, grow that Spark! Love to you:)
quixoticqt (2 stories) (53 posts)
 
8 years ago (2011-10-31)
my e-mail address is on my profile... But here you go if you can't find it: quixoticqt [at] yahoo.com

❤ Qt
Hockeyman (1 stories) (8 posts)
 
8 years ago (2011-10-29)
*that you think are happening subconsciously... I made a typo... I meant to write- I am not controlling these things and they are NOT happening subconsciously. This is a very very freaky thing happening right now I am not controlling it... Its another being but I don't know who or which kind as I am trying to find out with Qt right now.
Hockeyman (1 stories) (8 posts)
 
8 years ago (2011-10-29)
Your answer is exactly what I was NOT looking for. Nothing against you but I even stated above I have been medically cleared I know what you are trying to get to and mean but I would not post on this particular site If I were looking for an answer like yours... It would be more of a medical/psychological site... I posted here to find the more spiritual answer because I have been with some of the top facilities in psychology including depression and bipolar disorders/ grievances to figure those things out. You are trying to say that I am basically still depressed an or paranoid and schizo but I have been taken off of all meds by the doctors because that was the cause of my episode to begin with. I am better treated with a hollistic approach to medicine- homeopathic remedies. Each person reacts different to everything-natural medicine works best for me so I am almost positive this is a spiritual manner right now. I am not controlling the things that are happening subconsciously...
ChaosandOrder (1 stories) (11 posts)
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8 years ago (2011-10-29)
It sounds like to me that you may be having some issues with the death of your father and YOU are not sure what to do now. I am not sure what sort of relationship you had with your father, but it seems to me that you are now unsure about life in general. It may not be a spirit at all but your subconscious which can cause some psi projections making audible voices.

Which meds were you on while in a psyche ward, and how were you taken off of these meds, like tapered off etc. I majored in psychology in college and took many classes and what you are experiencing to me seems not paranormal. I, though, am not an expert on paranormal things, but I have had major depressive episodes and spent time in a psychiatric unit. I also have two bipolar sisters that have had some psychotic breaks and been on multiple medications.
Hockeyman (1 stories) (8 posts)
 
8 years ago (2011-10-29)
Also, if not a human spirit... What other kind of spirit would it be? Isnt human spirit basically the only one that would be able to do this? I couldn't imagine an animals spirit could?
Hockeyman (1 stories) (8 posts)
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8 years ago (2011-10-29)
Thanks, I really like what you say it makes things a bit clearer... If you don't mind Id like to email you if you wouldn't mine giving it to me so I can ask you some more things on a personal level and answer your questions also... And to respond to the spirit part... I feel as if the "spirit" or thing that is with me right now is not good nor bad... Almost as if it doesn't want me to know if its good or bad, but its almost like its playing hardball with me but it has some good intentions, just wanted to scare me first. Like some days it will have me waking up and ill feel on top of the world and like I'm going to have a great life... Than the very next day ill wake up and feel worse/like I did when my dad died and that there's nothing to live for and stuff. Its freaky and I wish that if it does want to stay with me that it keeps me positive/happy, but some moments theyll make me feel like there going to leave me and on a bad note...
quixoticqt (2 stories) (53 posts)
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8 years ago (2011-10-28)
Well it sounds like you were close to your father so when he died you went into a tragic/posttraumatic stress disorder state for a moment just enough to opened your ears/spirit to hear things.
So your father never told you something bothered him before he committed suicide? Like he didn't have an explanation? I honestly don't mean to pry.
Could be, if that's what you feel it to be then it is a spirit. I wouldn't think it's a human spirit though. Sounds to me like something negative/evil? I only say that because it seems to be latched on to your will; into a downward spiral since your dad died.

❤ Qt
Hockeyman (1 stories) (8 posts)
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8 years ago (2011-10-28)
Also, this has never happened to my dad or anyone in my family before... They would have been quick to tell like I am lol... So QT do you think this is a spirit? Like what is it cause its been with me for months? Really appreciate your help you seem to be quite on par.
Hockeyman (1 stories) (8 posts)
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8 years ago (2011-10-28)
So what do you mean open up my hearing... Do you mean a spirit?
quixoticqt (2 stories) (53 posts)
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8 years ago (2011-10-27)
I could only imagine that something opened up your hearing when your father died.
I could only imagine it being a generational curse. Something that happened to you father and when he died it went to you.
If you would like some help in praying for this negative experience your having you can e-mail me.

❤ Qt
Hockeyman (1 stories) (8 posts)
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8 years ago (2011-10-26)
I can't fathom that it can be a "psychic" just sitting in their house or wherever they sit, and being able to function and live their life, while being a part of my every move for the past 8 months. Yet I can't seem to fathom either than it can be a spirit... But indeed, it has to be one of the two. ITs certainly not myself as I can't control it, and its not an alien, so my two guesses are a human (I just don't know who or why) or a spirit (that mediums claim are floating the earth still and talk to people) that is controlling me and I don't know if this has happened before or why. Would really appreciate if someone can help me out with this... AnneV-what you are saying I understand, but does not really pertain to me... Unless you explain this "being" you are saying is attracted to me... Do you mean a spirit? Like a medium talks to? Or a psychic person?
Hockeyman (1 stories) (8 posts)
 
8 years ago (2011-10-26)
So you are saying a human can control someone elses mind from miles upon miles away? Or this is a spirit?
AnneV (4 stories) (1036 posts) mod
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8 years ago (2011-10-26)
When we endure a painful loss such as yourself, followed up with a mind altering substance, it is not uncommon for a negative being to attach themselves to us because that's what they feed on. Your thoughts vibrate at a certain frequency (as do all of ours) and when we are deeply unhappy and distressed, this lowers them and attract beings of the same mind set (birds of a feather, as they say). Since you are now at their same vibration point, you can perceive them via thoughts and they can even project their thoughts onto you.

Now that you know this, the hard part comes where you've got to raise your vibration to eradicate them. When you do this, they simply will no longer be at your frequency. Here is where life's lessons come into play. Many, if not most of us, are dealt substantial mental and/or physical blows in life. The higher character is formed by working through the loss, abuse, or whatever it is that's been dealt to you. It can't be easy because if it were, we'd learn nothing. But we are also only given what truly is in our nature to overcome.

You have resources to help you. Hopefully that includes family and friends but as you're finding out, there is the internet too. You seem wise enough to admit that a happy life is possible for yourself and that you know that drugs will hinder that. You're doing very well considering your loss. I have no doubt you'll be of great service to others that befall the same fate down the road.

Thank you for sharing your story.
Anne

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