It all started a couple years ago. There's a whole long and painstakingly slow moving story to it all but eventually it all ends up here, so here is where I'm going to start. I'm fourteen years old. I think I've seen a tad bit more than your regular teenage girl ranging from the 'super natural' to seeing my mom abused. I am an Empath. Was an Empath. See this is where the lines get a tad bit blurry. Since I was ten I could feel other's emotions as my own, the ideal definition of an Empath. Right? But lately, it's just stopped.
I learned to develop 'shield' type things in my mind but I don't even need them anymore! And, believe it or not I'm worried. I depend on the skill to sometimes realize what others are feeling, where and when to tread lightly and how and what will set a person off or calm them. That's what I kind of depended on to get through school most days. Knowing and having an advantage.
But it's gone.
I don't know what to do, and I've read a couple articles (maybe I should read more?) but I feel I need more direct advice, directed towards me so I can really wrap my mind around it. But just to get on the topic of my MIA gift I'm going to describe it, just so we can clearly tell if I'm an Empath or not because I've just been guessing I am.
When I have my 'shield' up I can only really feel the emotion's pushing at my conscious like steam or a light drowsy fog floating around a person kind of. They kind of lap at my conscious like waves to a beach, there one minute gone the next but always coming back. I could depend on it to come back. It also serves as an alert system when things are about to go awry.
When I don't have my shield up it's like I'm a host to separate emotions and my own emotions separated like a fish tank but still using the same water (the water would be my body). My mind unconsciously pokes around the clouds, sorts through things. The colors change, the 'light drowsy fog' can turn denser and less floaty and be the lightness that it is when calm.
But their all bundled up inside of me, this one person. And the other person doesn't realize what's happening because they don't know! And it's not like that happens every day, someone being able to 'read' and feel their emotions. And sometimes with emotions comes a word (and with that sentence connects a whole different story of mine) and I really can't separate the words from my own thoughts until the person actually says the words and by that time I'm a jungle of confusion and-
But, back to the matter at hand; so obviously as I stated before when someone feels a something I feel something too and sometimes it gets overwhelming and I resort to using my 'shield' (which I learned how to put up from this website. I was so excited when I first did it!). But, what I really want to know is your perspective. How does this happen?
Everyone is their own being and therefor another shouldn't be able to delve into their private feelings right? But then my mind takes me to evolution, are we evolving? Or? I don't know. I just really want to have someone else's opinion on this. A couple opinions would be nice so I could mull them all over at once and make connections and, huh, I really get ahead of myself sometimes. I have more questions' that will no doubt come to mind with each person's words. And I really do hope you'll help me answer a few questions. I really am curious. But anyway, the whole purpose of this was to ask if anyone else's 'ability' has ever gone missing, what you can do about it, and possibly why? And how your Empathy or ability works maybe?