I have shared one other experience on this website, I didn't think I'd post again, but this is so strange that I need help figuring it out. This has never happened before, but I think I have been controlling the energy from my hands? Although I've been researching I haven't read much, so excuse my lack of knowledge on this subject. You know how you can sometimes feel energy if you put your hands close to each other, well, it's like I can control that and make it much stronger. The harder I focus the more forceful it becomes or the more I can feel this tingling, cold sensation around my hands and it feels like air is coming off skin. I can especially feel it coming from my palms and in between my fingers. Sometimes if I collect a lot of energy then quickly push my fingers out I can feel it blow off my hands swiftly and finally slow down.
Maybe it has something to do with body temperature, because I'm good at making my hands freezing, while making heat come from them is much harder for me. Although sometimes when I focus the energy I do find that my palms will feel freezing, but the tips of my fingers will be warm. This is where it gets freaky, if I get enough energy, focus, and put my hands near something that is dangling loosely it will begin to shake and turn slightly without me actually touching it. I can't push objects that are sitting on a solid surface, but if it's hanging from something it's easier. I've also tried this with water running from the sink, and the water will begin to flicker and push from my hands slightly. Then I tried fire, but something different happened. It took a lot of concentration because the heat from the fire seemed to be push my energy away (as my energy is generally freezing cold), it was like two magnets pushing from each other, and after I took it away from the flame and I focus again the cold energy came rushing back twice as fast as usual.
I'm beginning to think it is a temperature thing, but at the same time the whole making things move makes me question this. I have one last weird experience, and because of it I think I can absorb energy or temperature maybe, like I can push off cold energy and absorb warm energy (sorry if this sounds stupid, I don't have the right vocabulary to explain this). So I can take heat from my body without touching it, if collect energy in my hands so they are freezing and I hover my finger over my skin and focus I can make the heat go into my finger. Like I feel the energy going into my finger, the inside of my finger sometimes even starts to twitch, and if I do it too long it'll start to burn. Then after a long while I will look at my arm and there will be a white spot where I took the heat from (the whiteness fades back to normal eventually), if I do this over a cut the cut will sting and burn really bad even if it's scabbed over. This may seem kind of funny, but I get hand eczema from the cold weather and when I focus and get my hands freezing I will watch the eczema start coming back onto my hands and my hands will begin to sting and itch from it. I was actually shocked to see I can control my eczema.
This kind of feeling is the kind of feeling I get when I experience ESP, which my ESP is uncontrollable and happens at random, but whenever I get this gut feeling something is going to happen (which it always does) I feel this wave of energy roll over my entire body. It's the exact feeling I feel in my hands, expect I can control it in my hands. I can actually push the feeling on my hands to my wrists and arms, but I can't make it stay there, and the same if I concentrate on one body part, but it only stays in my hands. (I don't do any form of drugs or take any medications, I don't mediate, and I have never taken any form of classes for any of this stuff.)
Anyone have any idea's as to what this could be? If anything, do you think it's temperature control or energy or both? How can I control it and get better? (I'm open to hearing anything right about now)