All of this stuff seems very fantasy like. Sometimes I need to make myself realize these abilities are real. Anywho the ability I lost was being able to see things or should I say "being clairvoyant?"Correct me if I am wrong. First time I have ever seen something was when I was 1 1/2 years of age and saw the virgin mary appear in heart shaped bubbles comforting me after something very traumatizing happened. Second time was when I saw angels flying out of a window and they waved at me (still stoked they did) I was 3.
During middle school, I would see spirits but only from the neck down. Now I only see things from the corner of my eyes and most of the time look like shadows --__-- But I hardly see anything anymore. But I get harassed by spirits more than anything and have started praying and feeling a little more safe now. And I also spontaneously astral project.
This one time after I "bumped" into a spirit thinking it was a person, and even apologizing, then realizing "wait a minute, who could that have been, what's going on, I'm the only one here, the whole room was spinning into a blur while I was just staring in awe for about a
Minute. (I have no idea what that experience was, and anyone kind enough to tell me what that was you will be very much appreciated.)
Let me tell you one of the last times I saw a spirit. This one rainy day I stayed home to read a book while my whole family went out. I am quite the book worm and would always be in my room alone. My mother would only bother me to let me know food was ready.
Anyways, on that day I was reading in my little love seat with the door open and as I am looking down at my book I see a person from the corner of my eye. I already knew it was a spirit and all the hairs on my body stood up. I was dreadfully terrified. Mind you I did not look up to see this spirit and stayed in the same exact position I was in before I saw it, pretending not to see it.
After I noticed it was gone, I tried slamming the door shut, but the air stopped it, and then I think to myself, "Oh no! The ghost is going to come after me because now it knows I did see it! Waaah! "I shut the door as quickly as possible, threw my book randomly to something, huddled in my love seat and cried hysterically. At that moment I thought to myself, "I am just an 11 year old girl, I'm a good girl, I bet no one else prays every night like I do, why does this have to happen to me, I hate it, I hate it, I hate it, I wish I could be left in peace and never see them again!"
Sad isn't it? I had no one to confide in, NO ONE. At the time I did not know it was an amazing gift I could use to help others. Nor did I know how to research things on the internet. Now my gift is gone. I would like to take one step forward and start being clairvoyant again, one step at a time.
Anyone lose an ability and gained it back? Love to hear how and your story behind it. Or anyone else have/had a hard time coping with your gifts like myself? Maybe we can help each other or be helped. Also anyone else have that experience of seeing the environment around you spinning in a blur?