My name is Carmela and I'm 15 years old. Ever since I can remember, I've had these strange experiences when a song keeps playing in my mind and seconds after that, a person close by will sing the same exact lyrics and tune playing inside my brain earlier, even though most of the songs are very unfamiliar to me (not much of a music fan). It happened when I was a kid but I managed to ignore it until the time I got older, it seems to have gotten stronger and happens almost every time I'm close to a person, and I can't control it. I can only listen to what they're going to sing after I hear it first in my own brain. It's really weird and annoying sometimes since I don't really listen to music that often and my best friend calls me "Jurassic" for not knowing the latest music trends because I prefer instrumental songs and the sounds of nature. Rock and Hip-hop songs infuriates me for unknown reasons but they're mostly the ones I pick-up from people. I tried to Google my curse, but it nothing useful came up.
I can only predict songs and my friend says that it's lame, she told me that I'm crazy and should probably ignore it. I took the advice and didn't mind it for the past few months (didn't work though), but after awhile I began to remember some of the other strange things that I did in the past and probably until now like the time when I used to sing in unison with the trees in the forest near our house when I find the time to be alone (weird right?). My mom also heard me one time when I was seven, that I sang a strange but sweet song to our garden in a language she didn't understand (It really creeped me out when she told it to me) and she thought I was possessed or something. Then when I was twelve or thirteen, most of our dogs kept dying one-by-one, mostly due to diseases (we don't have enough money for medicine and we had so many dogs). I always carry them in my arms with a blanket then I try to sing them to sleep before they die in the night, and humming seems to make them stop from moaning and crying. These are some of the strange things I do, and probably more.
I also have a psychic friend, who sees spirits and communicates with them. She sometimes teaches me some tricks and prayers so that they would leave me alone, I also suspect them for making my shoulder blades and legs ache when they appear, and it feels hollow when they aren't around (my mom and the doctor mistook it as muscle problems and I eventually got a one way ticket to the Physical Therapy for a month, though it never got better, but I told my mom that it worked since the procedures were very painful and it caused us a lot).
I'm also very grateful to my psychic friend for teaching me spirit stuff because in the past when I see a spirit or a ghost, my instinct kicks right in and throws whatever object I grab right at them (they probably think I'm hostile but they seriously need to leave me alone). They mostly appear as small dark shadows that creeps in the corner of my eye and sometimes actual human figures do show up in front of me (and then I throw stuff at them for making me feel more crazy). All these stuff probably sounds insane and weird but it's all true and it doesn't make any sense (title of my autobiography) and it's the reason why I'm an outcast in school and sometimes at home too. I think that maybe I'm just actually crazy (most of you might think so too) but I would love to hear some comments or suggestions.