I had my dog for almost half my life, he protected me any physical danger and he was always like a brother to me because we were so close. He recently passed almost 3 years ago. Of course this made me terribly upset, I've felt so alone since then, no one to share my secrets to that I can actually trust, I now sleep alone and scared most nights, no one who truly felt when I needed to be comforted.
Between the past 2 years I started dealing with things that kids my age shouldn't be dealing with. I became constantly stressed and I also ended up getting depressed for a while.
But the most amazing thing happened to me a few weeks ago, I got home from school and ran across his leash and his toys that I kept. I broke down with all the memories and the pain I felt that I never let out. I was laying on the floor with my eyes closed and I started yelling out loud how much I missed him and wished he was still with me. After about 10 minutes and when my yells turned to whispers, I felt a presence close to me, there are usually some entities in my room so I didn't think much of it. I kept my face buried under my arms. But then I realized that energy I was making me feel so calm, peaceful, and I felt love. All of the hurt I was feeling and holding in for so long was just gone, no more pain, no more tears, I felt so relaxed. This made me smile, but I wasn't sure if it was my dogs presence or anothers.
Until I felt him lay against my leg like he used to do, my heart started racing and I started laughing because I knew it was him, words can't explain how happy I felt. I was scared to look up though, for the fact that I can only vividly see spirits when I astral project. I had the fear of looking at him and he wouldn't be visible to me, so I decided to keep my eyes closed.
I layed there with my dog for hours, I was petting him, I felt wonderful to feel his soft fur again. But then my family came home and I felt him tell me he had to go, so I lifted my arm from around him and felt his presence walk away. I opened my eyes and got to see a white shadowy figure walk out my room.
2 days ago I was in my room, having a very aggressive argument with someone. I sat on the floor, I was crying and had a headache, so I put my hands against my head and started yelling in my head, I don't know to whom. I was saying things like "Please make all of this go away. I don't want to feel like this". Before I realized I felt a presence behind me, and just as before my tears instantly stopped, I felt so calm, all the pain I was feeling a few seconds ago was gone. It made me smile, because I knew it was dog, I recognized his presence and I even smelled him, the way he smelled after being groomed and showered. Which made me laugh.
Now I know that my dog is okay and still loves me, but might I have called him myself or might he just come when I'm really upset and can't seem to handle things?
Thank you for reading and have a great day (: