Now before I start, I just wanted to say that this is my first time posting anything on here, I just found it recently. I also want to say, that I've always had a strong belief in the supernatural, but now I'm beginning to think that I may actually be crazy. This was the only thing I've found that may ease my fears. At any rate, here it goes.
I'll start with a flashback, anything I think may be related; ever since I was young, I've had very vivid dreams and remembered them quite well. Abnormally well. So well in fact, sometimes when I recount them to my family, they think I made them up (I've also got a very active imagination). Another thing that may be related is as long as I can remember, I often see flashes of movement out of the corner of my eye. Black shapes mostly, sometimes white. Often vaguely humanoid, though it is hard to say since they are only flashes.
Now back to the present, or at least, far more recently.
In the last week or so, I've begun to notice that I keep getting these feelings about things that always happen or are proved right. For example, a couple days ago in PE, I quite randomly got this feeling that my friend wasn't going to be there today. She wasn't. But then, as soon as we started doing stuff, I got another feeling that she would walk through the door in a couple minutes. I remember at the time of the incident literally arguing with myself like: 'what the heck? Where did that come from? Of course she isn't!'
But she did. That's the day I really began to wonder. So several days later, I decided to experiment. My chance hit during dinner with my family when I suddenly got this feeling that if my brother tried jam that day, he wouldn't hate it anymore. As soon as I got that feeling, I literally announced it in the middle of supper, turning to my brother I said, "If you try jam today, you won't hate it anymore."
Everyone stared at me like I had completely lost it. "How do you know?" my brother had asked. I had kind of shrugged in response, that was a mystery to me too, "Feeling," I relied.
After about ten minutes of convincing, my brother finally ate a small spoonful. Once he had swallowed, he looked at me and said it was, "Okay."
I'll admit, it was exciting to be proved right!
But after that, it started getting scary. I kept getting these feelings of being watched, sometimes accompanied by flashes out of the corner of my eye. A couple times, I thought I saw people standing there, but they were there and gone to quickly for me to be sure. It's really starting to freak me out, especially when I'm alone in my room at night. I start feeling very frightened, and there's a clenching sensation in my gut. At this point, I don't know what to do. Am I psychic? Crazy? I'll admit, I've always wanted powers of some sort, and I do want to learn how to control this, (provided it is a gift and not just me going mad). But I don't know what to do. So I've got a couple questions:
1) Am I psychic?
2) If so, what kind?
3) How do I control it?
4) Despite it scaring me, I do want it to get stronger, always face your fears right? So how do I do this?
5) Or possibly, is everything just pure coincidence and I'm over-thinking things?
Any advice is welcome, along with tips. Unless of course I'm crazy, in which case, I don't think anyone can help me.
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