This is going to be hard to explain and you'll understand later when I say I can feel him knowing that I want more information and wanting to say things but I can't hear.
I've had this "guardian" as my friend calls it since I was 6. I see him in my dreams as well as feel him come and go whenever I'm scared or about to do something stupid. This guardian protects me but also gives me nightmares like killing my family and other things as a way of punishing me I guess. I'm not sure.
All I know is that this guy is well a guy and just is a black blob in my head. I can't see him unless I'm dreaming and he wants to be seen but I feel him everywhere I go.
I want to know more about him and wonder if he truly is my guardian. I'm 16 now and I think it's time to finally understand my old friend.
Through some careful meditation and just what my friend will let me know is that he is, a man in his twenties I think, very tall, very kind, very strict, is from an older time, likes me very much, wants to help me, doesn't like my friend who kicked him once and also very much wants me to stop doing stupid things.
I met my friend when I was six, and this was when I had just moved to a new state so I was feeling very lonely and I'm wondering if he is just something I made up, until my friend saw him instantly when she stayed over. She said that he was staring down at her cautiously when she was sleeping and, well she kicked him, and then my friend gave her a sudden fever and headache. I had to have a talk with him which was awkward but then I learned he wanted to help. I just want to know how I can get to know him better or what he is for that matter.